Struggling with Life, Faith, and Thoughts of the Afterlife

[liz.]

Hello everyone,

this is my first time posting on a forum. Lately, l've been feeling really down and overwhelmed, thinking about life and what comes after. Living in this dunya feels stressful enough, especially when trying to balance faith and worldly responsibilities. On top of that, the thought of life after death feels even more terrifying.

I feel completely drained, like existing in this world is exhausting, and knowing that it doesn't end with death only adds to the weight. Sometimes I wish I didn't exist at all. 

—it feels so overwhelming. Why do we have to go through all of this? I also feel burdened by the rules of religion, the pressure to live a certain way, and the fear that if I fail, my afterlife will be ruined. These thoughts are really dragging me down, and I'm struggling to cope. I wish I wasn't here at all. I know this might be a sign of low Imaan but seriously I wish we didn’t have to put so much effort in keeping everything together, i just want to give up on all this. I am genuinely tired, out of so many people in this dunya, I sometimes wish I died early in life or just did not get born. 

[ahlulbaytlover_313]

well you're certainly not the only one, I am on the same boat especially given my sins.

 

The only thing I would recommend is being hopeful of allah's (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) mercy and do your best as at the end of the day your effort is what would matter the most.

 

Know that all of the shia/mumineen and mominat/lovers of ahlulbayt will make it to paradise eventually and be there forever and be happy there forever. The maximum amount of time I have read in ahadith is 300,000 years so.... (I don't know if it is authentic, though I have heard the number 70,000 years since childhood) hopefully most of the sinners get out early or don't go in at all and pay for their sins in the grave or even get forgiven in barzakh.

 

Maybe keep yourself occupied with stuff and day-to-day tasks that make it hard for you to think of all this and focus only on making a positive impact in the world and your life.

 

Good luck and best wishes to all shia men and women who are struggling to keep on going in life.

[Shian e Ali]

I can completely relate to what you're saying. You can read my signature below. 

Busy yourself in some activities, set goals, whatever they are. Don't overthink that you're commiting sins or you're doing good - don't ignore it, try your best, but don't overthink it. Find a purpose in life, and things will settle down. Breathe a little, go out on small walks, sit down and sip coffee, lay on the bed and do nothing. Don't stress it. Allah is all forgiving and loving, don't underestimate His mercy. 

[PureExistence1]

Salaam @sis liz, 

(Nice name btw:)

I want to come back to this thread later when i have a bit of time in sha Allah.

You sound EXACTLY like me and where I'm at and HAVE been at for some time now, and worldly events are only making it worse. Many days i literally have no energy to do anything (could be because im almost 49 and things are changing...iykyk..) but besides that, i look at the world and life around me and im like, i just cant today:( Things drains my life force-no matter what direction i look in, its hell, and not just for me.

I dont see myself as being beneficial to anyone or anything. (i have a particular health issue that REALLY stops me from doing things)

I wish my husband didnt have to deal with me. He deserves someone healthy.

There are days where im so sick of whats going on in the larger world and then with the stressful  "stuff" i have to deal with that i actually get angry at Allah(سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) out of frustration. It's really taxed me and i behave very disobediently at these times.(Not in a way that affects anyone else-just me, cuz seriously?!  Im a convert and i come from a pretty crazy past and a lot of my stubbornness and rebelliousness never left me.) I thought i had tempered it through islam and 14 years of being a muslim and abstaining from actions that weren't serving me well as a non muslim but clearly I haven't done near enough cuz everywhere i go, there i am..and yea, sometimes the stress of following islam coupled with life, coupled with people trying to terrify me into compliance...just ugh, thats a totally inappropriate approach, especially for converts/reverts imo...

Anyway sis, i hope you dont disappear. I have more to say that hopefully can help you even though for me, im still white knuckling things.

Will try to get back asap in sha Allah.

W/s

 

[123xo]

Hello OP,

Sorry that you're feeling that way, don't know what the severity of your struggles in life are but just know that whatever bad that befalls on us comes for a reason and to teach us something. Keep praying and keep having patience don't let your nafs win over you. Learn to detach from everything that brings you sorrow (basically everything) and try to see what your purpose in life is.

Will keep you in my prayers and duaas, just know that everyone living is struggling somehow.

May Allah guide us all and remove the love of this dunya from our hearts. 
 

xo

 

[Abu Hadi]

On 11/28/2024 at 10:58 PM, liz. said:

Hello everyone,

this is my first time posting on a forum. Lately, l've been feeling really down and overwhelmed, thinking about life and what comes after. Living in this dunya feels stressful enough, especially when trying to balance faith and worldly responsibilities. On top of that, the thought of life after death feels even more terrifying.

I feel completely drained, like existing in this world is exhausting, and knowing that it doesn't end with death only adds to the weight. Sometimes I wish I didn't exist at all. 

—it feels so overwhelming. Why do we have to go through all of this? I also feel burdened by the rules of religion, the pressure to live a certain way, and the fear that if I fail, my afterlife will be ruined. These thoughts are really dragging me down, and I'm struggling to cope. I wish I wasn't here at all. I know this might be a sign of low Imaan but seriously I wish we didn’t have to put so much effort in keeping everything together, i just want to give up on all this. I am genuinely tired, out of so many people in this dunya, I sometimes wish I died early in life or just did not get born. 

Bismillah Ta'la

'A believer should always be between fear and hope'. Imam Sadiq((عليه السلام))

What this means in practical terms is that you should fear nothing but your own sins and hope for nothing except Allah(s.w.a)'s mercy. 

Fear your own sins because these are the only things that can possibly stop you from having a wonderful experience, both in this life and the next. When you sin, ask Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) to forgive you and take practical steps toward not committing the sin again. Then you have done your responsibility. It is true that we don't actually know whether Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) will forgive us, but we know that Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) is the Most Gracious, Most Merciful and He(s.w.a) has imposed mercy on himself. That should give you hope and enough fear to avoid sin, which is the purpose of the fear in the first place. To stop you from destroying your own soul thru sinful acts. 

As for the other things like family pressures, demands at work, social stigma, etc, these are things you should not be afraid of. If your family is constantly bothering you, minimize your contact with them but don't cut it off completely. By lessening the contact, you are telling them that I don't approve of the way you are treating me, and sometimes they get the message. Sometimes they don't and if they don't then your life will be happier with minimal contact, believe me because I am talking out of personal experience. 

For pressures as work, if your job is too stressful, look for another job or lessen your hours and downgrade your lifestyle so that you can survive on less. A stressful job can completely ruin your life and affect your deen. Try to get into a place where you can be at a happy medium. 

As for the rules of religion, they are there to protect you either from harmful people in society or protect you from destroying your own soul. They are like the skin on your body. Your skin protects your internal organs and from diseases which are out in in the environment. Abandoning religion or the rules of religion is like removing your own skin. Now your protection from these harmful things is gone, and one of those things or mulitple things will make their way into your heart and your soul and destroy you. You might be physically alive, but with a dead soul and a dead heart, and there are millions of people walking around in this world like this. They exist only to chase after their imaginary desires. This is the life of a zombie, not a human being. The human being was meant for much more than that. 

Also, there are the wajib and the mustahab, the haram and the makrooh. If you do the wajib (which are not very many) and avoid the haram (which are also not very many) then you will be safe in this life and the next and will enter paradise with honor, so if you do that you have absolutely nothing to worry about in the next life. If you don't do a wajb or do a haram, then ask Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) to forgive you with sincerity and try to avoid do that in the future and you will be the same as if you never did it. The mustahab and avoiding the makrooh (additional rules) are only there as an opportunity for us to make additional spiritual progress, and they are like extra credit, not required. No harm will happen to you if you don't do them, but you will get additional spiritual benefits if you do them. 

 

[PureExistence1]

Salaam @liz.

How are you doing these days?

Im still in the same situation. 

Just wanted to check on you.

May Allah(سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) accept all your efforts on this night, in sha Allah (23rd of the month of Ramadhan where I am)

 

[Activate your inner truth]

 

Salaams Liz.

 

Hoping this message finds you in a good place insha Allah.

 

 

This world can be a scary place, and it has its challenges, even without having to go through with our values as Muslims, it can be hard for people.

You know, sometimes when a person is also highly sensitive or very strong in empathy, the world and its ways can be amplified like waves crashing against you.

I do not know your situation or what you are truly going through and am not sure if feeling overwhelmed and down is due to struggling with the   rules and regulations or it is also life itself that has got you down.

 

But what feeling at present will subside in time, you may find yourself getting better at allowing things to be as they are, it’s a journey and sometimes its hard for us to find out way through when the map seems confusing but each step you  take   into this will slowly bring you to more a open place, where hope and opportunity of well-being will be waiting for you.

Remember your relationship with God is a very intimate and sacred connection one that’s love is like oceans and landscapes of joy and nurturing support every step of the way, even when we are at our worst, His love and Mercy and supporting words will keep on guiding you, every single step of the way.

Sometimes for whatever reason (as I know I do) forget about the intimate connection with The Most High and just what a beautiful feeling that is, and when we are in that place, it’s that peace we feel away from what the matrix of the world tells us.

 

You only have to do  your best that’s all when balancing the world and faith.

 

And if for now, your best is simply just doing one thing or getting through your day, that is enough.

 

 

Especially when trying to balance faith and worldly responsibilities. On top of that, the thought of life after death feels even more terrifying.

 

Its ok to feel this way, as we go through life some of us will have thoughts and concerns about the afterlife, its quite normal for us to feel a fear of the unknown.

I know that at the present you said it doesn’t end with death, and it only adds to the weight.

When a person has this on their backs its harder to think freely in way that supports our minds to see things more clearly.  And it’s hard to see or think clearly, we are in a storm, sometimes those storms just seem to last longer and eventually they do subside, and clarity will find its way to you eventually.

 

 

 

 

 

I don’t know if something else is going on within you but perhaps feeling drained and not wanting to exist might be connected to the worry of death to, like it is amplifying those thoughts.

 

Maybe this not knowing it ends with death may be also to do with feeling exhausted and not wanting to exist, for when not feeling like we are existing we feel between places, neither here nor there.  It could be this may be adding to that.

 

If you have a close support system of family and friends, if possible, see if you can talk to one of them about this, how your feeling, sometimes a listening ear can be a real liberator when another listens and helps you connect the map of life itself.

If we can be brave enough to ask why we do not want to exist and find that strong and beautiful courage God gave us, then, the answers shall eventually come forward like shining colored pearls sparkling beneath the sea.

 

If you wish, as and when you have time, look at (your own pace, no pressure)  things when you feel calm.  At some point the solutions will appear.

 

Do not worry too  much about conforming  and trying to struggle with the rules of religion for now,  just stick to the main ones and (the fundamental ones)  worry not about the rest just like leaves dropping from the trees.  

Life takes time, and purpose and developing ourselves in our religion takes time.

Read the whispered prayers for they really are soothing and free of any heaviness.

 

 

Feeling fear or fear of failure, is something that we do worry about, its good that your thinking about it’s as least its showing your resilience to want to be better, but if its taking over and affecting you, ask yourself what is  really going on with that fear, the fear itself has something behind it wanting to be addressed and when it does in divine time, the awareness of freedom comes through like doors opening right in front of you.

 

Giving up in one sense is not a bad thing, but give it up to God, you are giving it over to Him and lightening yourself in this journey.

 

 

You are here for a reason, you do matter to God, you matter to yourself, and you have a place here this world.

 

Wishing you good healing and joy.

 

I pray all of humanity who are going through hardships and challenges find their way to Him and find their freedom and purpose.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[liz.]

19 hours ago, PureExistence1 said:

Salaam @liz.

How are you doing these days?

Im still in the same situation. 

Just wanted to check on you.

May Allah(سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) accept all your efforts on this night, in sha Allah (23rd of the month of Ramadhan where I am)

 

These past three months have truly been a rollercoaster of emotions, filled with highs and lows. Even though I always turn to Allah and Ahlulbayt in my lowest moments, I still struggle to overcome the exhaustion that seems to stem from daily life problems and an overwhelming sense of loneliness. This feeling makes it incredibly difficult to hold my faith together, but no matter what, I try to cling to it as tightly as I can. Maybe this is a test, but it takes immense patience and effort just to do the bare minimum. Sometimes, I feel like walking away from everything and taking a break—from both deen and dunya. I struggle to connect with Allah on a spiritual level and to find peace within my heart. No matter how much I try to build a relationship with Him, I always feel lost. I don’t know, May Allah make things easier and not let either life or faith become unbearable. I hope you find ease too because these negative thoughts are terrifying. If someone strays from the path of Haqq, I fear it would be a hundred times harder to find the way back. Inshallah May Allah accept all our prayers and fasts. 

[liz.]

13 hours ago, Activate your inner truth said:

 

Salaams Liz.

 

Hoping this message finds you in a good place insha Allah.

 

 

This world can be a scary place, and it has its challenges, even without having to go through with our values as Muslims, it can be hard for people.

You know, sometimes when a person is also highly sensitive or very strong in empathy, the world and its ways can be amplified like waves crashing against you.

I do not know your situation or what you are truly going through and am not sure if feeling overwhelmed and down is due to struggling with the   rules and regulations or it is also life itself that has got you down.

 

But what feeling at present will subside in time, you may find yourself getting better at allowing things to be as they are, it’s a journey and sometimes its hard for us to find out way through when the map seems confusing but each step you  take   into this will slowly bring you to more a open place, where hope and opportunity of well-being will be waiting for you.

Remember your relationship with God is a very intimate and sacred connection one that’s love is like oceans and landscapes of joy and nurturing support every step of the way, even when we are at our worst, His love and Mercy and supporting words will keep on guiding you, every single step of the way.

Sometimes for whatever reason (as I know I do) forget about the intimate connection with The Most High and just what a beautiful feeling that is, and when we are in that place, it’s that peace we feel away from what the matrix of the world tells us.

 

You only have to do  your best that’s all when balancing the world and faith.

 

And if for now, your best is simply just doing one thing or getting through your day, that is enough.

 

 

Especially when trying to balance faith and worldly responsibilities. On top of that, the thought of life after death feels even more terrifying.

 

Its ok to feel this way, as we go through life some of us will have thoughts and concerns about the afterlife, its quite normal for us to feel a fear of the unknown.

I know that at the present you said it doesn’t end with death, and it only adds to the weight.

When a person has this on their backs its harder to think freely in way that supports our minds to see things more clearly.  And it’s hard to see or think clearly, we are in a storm, sometimes those storms just seem to last longer and eventually they do subside, and clarity will find its way to you eventually.

 

 

 

 

 

I don’t know if something else is going on within you but perhaps feeling drained and not wanting to exist might be connected to the worry of death to, like it is amplifying those thoughts.

 

Maybe this not knowing it ends with death may be also to do with feeling exhausted and not wanting to exist, for when not feeling like we are existing we feel between places, neither here nor there.  It could be this may be adding to that.

 

If you have a close support system of family and friends, if possible, see if you can talk to one of them about this, how your feeling, sometimes a listening ear can be a real liberator when another listens and helps you connect the map of life itself.

If we can be brave enough to ask why we do not want to exist and find that strong and beautiful courage God gave us, then, the answers shall eventually come forward like shining colored pearls sparkling beneath the sea.

 

If you wish, as and when you have time, look at (your own pace, no pressure)  things when you feel calm.  At some point the solutions will appear.

 

Do not worry too  much about conforming  and trying to struggle with the rules of religion for now,  just stick to the main ones and (the fundamental ones)  worry not about the rest just like leaves dropping from the trees.  

Life takes time, and purpose and developing ourselves in our religion takes time.

Read the whispered prayers for they really are soothing and free of any heaviness.

 

 

Feeling fear or fear of failure, is something that we do worry about, its good that your thinking about it’s as least its showing your resilience to want to be better, but if its taking over and affecting you, ask yourself what is  really going on with that fear, the fear itself has something behind it wanting to be addressed and when it does in divine time, the awareness of freedom comes through like doors opening right in front of you.

 

Giving up in one sense is not a bad thing, but give it up to God, you are giving it over to Him and lightening yourself in this journey.

 

 

You are here for a reason, you do matter to God, you matter to yourself, and you have a place here this world.

 

Wishing you good healing and joy.

 

I pray all of humanity who are going through hardships and challenges find their way to Him and find their freedom and purpose.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Wa alaykum as-salam,

What you said about being sensitive and empathetic is so true. Navigating both life and deen with a sensitive heart feels ten times harder. At times, it feels suffocating—like I’m constantly on a journey without ever reaching a destination. One problem ends, and another begins, or I find myself endlessly praying for things to work out. Even for the smallest things I feel like the moment I stop praying for them, they won’t go the right way.

But you’re right—it’s best to take things slowly and keep them minimal. I truly try my best to maintain my connection with Allah; He is the One I turn to in every low moment. Yet, despite that, I still struggle to feel connected to Him. I know it’s because of the exhaustion that comes from dunya, and I’m still trying to hold everything together. Life feels dull and empty sometimes, and that’s when thoughts of not existing creep in—like life is just an endless test of patience. But I’m also trying to integrate shukr into my mindset. Life feels stuck and like an endless loop of the same routine. Sometimes I feel gratitude that at least I feel the urge to connect with Allah and to have a strong bond with Him, which could be enough to feel satisfied. 

And I absolutely love what you said: "Giving up in one sense is not a bad thing, but give it up to God—you are giving it over to Him and lightening yourself in this journey." That’s exactly what I need to do. 

[PureExistence1]

On 3/23/2025 at 5:41 PM, liz. said:

Maybe this is a test, but it takes immense patience and effort just to do the bare minimum. Sometimes, I feel like walking away from everything and taking a break—from both deen and dunya. I struggle to connect with Allah on a spiritual level and to find peace within my heart. No matter how much I try to build a relationship with Him, I always feel lost. I don’t know, May Allah make things easier and not let either life or faith become unbearable

Salaam sister, subhannAllah the similarity between what youre experiencing and my own struggles is amazing.

Yes, this is ALL definitely a test/multiple tests af once..often the bare minimum is all i can muster, then things happen that compound the issues...like prayers missed for legitimate reasons adding up to a huge amount and needing to offer them just to feel like my head is barely above water again..

Sister if you can, try to refrain from raking a break from the deen as that can have dire consequences, as you know, and sometimes people dint nake it back..and then you have to make up any missed prayers you accrued if you come back and THAT is a fiasco nobody wants...just stay..and do your best.

I dont know your personal situation, but definetly take a break from as much dunya as is feasible right now. Taking care of your soul isn't just about offering tons of mustahab salaats or meditating on quran or dhikr. Sometimes it's a temporary cutoff from things draining you in the dunya. Even the Prophet (SAWS) retired to the cave of Hira and left society temporarily. Theres an example in that for us. Sometimes we need to detach for a bit.

I haven't said anything you dont already know. Just try to listen to that little voice inside you...your intuition, and listen when it tells you you need a break..me NOT doing that may be why my health eventually went downhill despite 3x 16 mile hikes a week, lifting weights, mountain biking, skateboarding and being on a farm in nature growing a ton of my own food and having a spot on diet..i just had too much stress, anger, frustrations and burnout from my family...then i got covid, turned into long covid for 2 years and for the last year its been a new chronic pain problem...i think i was just torn down by the stress and even while doing "all the right things", my body succumbed and now im a mess and it makes trying to do the bare minimum in religion so hard...the way  it is, i can forget about attaining to higher spiritual stations..its just too hard to manage right now, until something changes somewhere, somehow..

I had a sister warning me 7+years ago this was highly likely to happen to me if i didnt chill, for lack of a better word, but i didn't and now look where i am.

Sister, please dont do what i did

As salaamun alaikum and with duas.

[Activate your inner truth]

On 3/24/2025 at 12:59 AM, liz. said:

Wa alaykum as-salam,

What you said about being sensitive and empathetic is so true. Navigating both life and deen with a sensitive heart feels ten times harder. At times, it feels suffocating—like I’m constantly on a journey without ever reaching a destination. One problem ends, and another begins, or I find myself endlessly praying for things to work out. Even for the smallest things I feel like the moment I stop praying for them, they won’t go the right way.

But you’re right—it’s best to take things slowly and keep them minimal. I truly try my best to maintain my connection with Allah; He is the One I turn to in every low moment. Yet, despite that, I still struggle to feel connected to Him. I know it’s because of the exhaustion that comes from dunya, and I’m still trying to hold everything together. Life feels dull and empty sometimes, and that’s when thoughts of not existing creep in—like life is just an endless test of patience. But I’m also trying to integrate shukr into my mindset. Life feels stuck and like an endless loop of the same routine. Sometimes I feel gratitude that at least I feel the urge to connect with Allah and to have a strong bond with Him, which could be enough to feel satisfied. 

And I absolutely love what you said: "Giving up in one sense is not a bad thing, but give it up to God—you are giving it over to Him and lightening yourself in this journey." That’s exactly what I need to do. 

 

 

 

Salaams Liz, hoping this message finds you in a place of light and happiness.

Suffocating is an apt word to describe how empaths go through life, you know the way our hearts/souls are designed in a world that does not seem to support us, but the crazy thing is its in this labyrinth of overwhelm that we feel trapped in, it is the very place that becomes our freedom, once we start to learn how to navigate it.

 

Sensitive people are actually master navigators of life itself  but it’s a process that happens in due time, as much as this may sound impossible or crazy, the amplification  you are feeling in life is part of that cycle and is tied in with our inner most beliefs, those thoughts and beliefs at present, are hitting us  from all sides, just like the storm when it comes at the doors, we feel so much more.

For some  they it might feel like a  light  wind, but for us it can feel like howling winds but like all storms, this too, is something we can overtime start to manage.

 

Your sensitivity you feel as much as its challenging is also a  wonderful thing , yet when you are going through what you are going though it feels like hell, you find no one understands and your alone, it’s a little like having to burn matches one after the other to give you a light that you need on dark nights.

 

I agree with you on life and religion combined makes its harder as we are going through balancing both which are helping us grow yet can feel like being in a treadmill, thinking we are going nowhere are the same time.

 

Its these two opposing forces (life and religion) with the person within being at struggle but this life itself it’s about us finding our balance.

 

 

 

Do you feel it’s been this way for some time? The constantly being on the journey without reaching the destination?

It’s very interesting what you have written here, whereas you are trying to find this destination, but it has no door to be found, no place to say this is the stop, and here you are almost like clockwork without fail, the problems turn up like a menace, as a person you want to understand that connection between the innermost ways you are feeling, to how this is guiding you on your journey and the world at large, or the space you are in as all these are interconnected. Now, this bridge of interconnection when you are on it is not showing where it’s meant to end.

 

But all bridges will lead somewhere, to a place of growth and direction.

 

Again, note to make which is two things going on at the same time, balancing life and religion, and when problems are occurring with one ending and another coming, I can see how this can make the journey of your life feel without finding a destination. We then hope and pray for a solution.

 

Liz, where you pray for things to work out and you said you pray for even the smallest things and when you stop praying for them you mentioned then they won’t go the right way.

 

Do you then feel an anxiety with the praying for things in that if you don’t stop praying for them, the right way.

 

I do not know what your struggles are and your hopes but give this a try and (I know it takes courage, but it will be worth it,)  is to just allow the space your in to be, just allow yourself to feel the moment if you can and see what happens overtime,

This might seem very hard to do at first, but with awareness and practices the burdens that hold you may start to ease gradually.

 

Its also wonderful that you’re practising gratitude, it has such a healing affect upon our minds and bodies.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

But you’re right—it’s best to take things slowly and keep them minimal. I truly try my best to maintain my connection with Allah; He is the One I turn to in every low moment. Yet, despite

Its also good that your trying, that is the most important thing, even when it can feel like we are being chased down by life.

And its brilliant that you have that the exhaustion is coming from the world when it comes to connecting to God.

 

Remember, you will have times where it’s hard to connect to your Lord but the main thing is it’s your journey with him, and sometimes its in those moments when your tested, when you feel you’re not connecting due to the exhaustion, but its times like that, when the body takes hits, the mind takes hits, God is aware of those , and  perhaps those not connecting moments might actually be the gold inside of you that God sees,  but it’s just that we are in our difficulties and it’s  not always easy for us to connect.

 

Without knowing , these might be powerful moments for you.

 

You have shown allot of depths and self-awareness of yourself in your words and that is the navigator within- which is a blessing.  It signals hope.  It shows there is a strong person in there.

 

It would be good to look at this about life feeling dull and empty sometimes, maybe behind the veil of this dull and empty life something is there that makes one feel this way. The feelings of non-existent are married together and we just need to find the knot that has binded them, once that is untied, I pray freedom finds its way to you.

 

Your ability to connect will emerge with each step closer to healing your being.

 

 

 

Life feels stuck and like an endless loop of the same routine.

I feel this endless loop is like a continuum of being thrown from one end to the other in a circular way, almost like a devoid place.  But nothing stays the same for ever.  The inner loop pattern within you will undo itself with some inner work in a gentle way.

 

 

 

When we allow ourselves to mentally step back from all that is happening, almost like stepping back from the theatre of life and just for a few minutes exit out of the settings of the world, ask yourself how I feel when I’m away from all of that, does it feel peaceful, does it feel the same.

 

Whatever you feel, allow yourself to feel and if you gradually start finding your feeling different even if for a few minutes, know that there is more of that waiting for you.

Keep practising the giving up to God, even if it five minutes a day, the moment we start this initiation of change from within, overtime, this can give way to positive changes within you and your world.

 

 

I want you to feel proud of being here and writing what you have written, that takes courage, it really does and that shows hope.

 

Sorry if message was a bit long or had typos.