Adrenaline Rush

[yasahebalzaman.313]

So recently I'm not being able to sleep cause I had 3 rough past years with my conversion, had to pass through a lot, work and education altogether. I started having 2 weeks ago some very slight anxiety attacks at night that were keeping me from sleep. My heart starts bumping fast as soon as I'm falling asleep and my mind wakes up all of a sudden. My heart is fine now I was able to control it, but i caught a very bad habit along the way, and a very bad sleeping pattern. This was really draining. Until my friend who's an expert in psychology and a medical analyst told me that i should face my fears so i can by pass this problem and start sleeping like before. I had two fears a minor claustrophobia which i got rid of when i entered a really tight tunnel that leads to a cave 2 years ago and now i still have this height issue which scares me. I reserved today at 6 pm to go and do it but im really Freaking Out.

Few thoughts that I'm thinking of to get ready and do it (because i really wanna start sleeping at night and fast Ramadan insha'Allah) is that I'm a shia of Ali(as), and that we're the companions of Imam al mahdi! He's our protector and guider. If i will have such ireasonable fear then what do i worth really. And of course that Allah(swt) is protecting me and that fear is illogical produced by our own mind.

I really need all the motivation that i can get!

[Danish14]

11 minutes ago, yasahebalzaman.313 said:

So recently I'm not being able to sleep cause I had 3 rough past years with my conversion, had to pass through a lot, work and education altogether. I started having 2 weeks ago some very slight anxiety attacks at night that were keeping me from sleep. My heart starts bumping fast as soon as I'm falling asleep and my mind wakes up all of a sudden. My heart is fine now I was able to control it, but i caught a very bad habit along the way, and a very bad sleeping pattern. This was really draining. Until my friend who's an expert in psychology and a medical analyst told me that i should face my fears so i can by pass this problem and start sleeping like before. I had two fears a minor claustrophobia which i got rid of when i entered a really tight tunnel that leads to a cave 2 years ago and now i still have this height issue which scares me. I reserved today at 6 pm to go and do it but im really Freaking Out.

Few thoughts that I'm thinking of to get ready and do it (because i really wanna start sleeping at night and fast Ramadan insha'Allah) is that I'm a shia of Ali(as), and that we're the companions of Imam al mahdi! He's our protector and guider. If i will have such ireasonable fear then what do i worth really. And of course that Allah(swt) is protecting me and that fear is illogical produced by our own mind.

I really need all the motivation that i can get!

There are two kinds of fear. The fear of evil which is deception and nothing else. Like people have fear of heights, fear from people that what will others think? and fear of death. These are mere deceptions and are just meant to undermine our personality but we are too strong to defeat such by keeping other in mind. That is whatever happens I am not going to live a life of cowards and leave the path of Ali a.s. There were many people to Prophet (PBUHH) who used to say that stop your propagation of Islam and we will give you wealth, women and keys of Kaba and make you our lord. He (PBUHHP) said that I do not have any concern with whatever you offer me, its not for personal gains. Then people asked Hazrat Abu Talib a.s that give us Muhammad (PBUHHP) and we will tackle his issue ourselves at which Hazrat Abu Talib a.s said no one can twist even a single hair of Muhammad. And when he told it to Hazrat Muhammad (PBUHHP), his (PBUHHP) cheeks begin to be overflowed with tears and he (PBUHHP) said: "Even if they place the sun on my left hand and the moon on right hand, I will never cease to propagate what I am taught", It is the fear of anger of Prophet (PBUHH) that He (PBUHHP) defeated all deceptive fears. This life is a gift, we cannot live it by keeping fear of deception and lower things whose fear makes us lazy, weak and coward. We have to keep fear of failure in mind that let us not be failed before those who defended, supported and were killed in the way of Allah (SWT). This life is not worth keeping fear and forget what goodness is. Be positive, your fears can easily be overwhelmed by you. Just be at peace.

[certainclarity]

36 minutes ago, yasahebalzaman.313 said:

So recently I'm not being able to sleep cause I had 3 rough past years with my conversion, had to pass through a lot, work and education altogether. I started having 2 weeks ago some very slight anxiety attacks at night that were keeping me from sleep. My heart starts bumping fast as soon as I'm falling asleep and my mind wakes up all of a sudden. My heart is fine now I was able to control it, but i caught a very bad habit along the way, and a very bad sleeping pattern. This was really draining. Until my friend who's an expert in psychology and a medical analyst told me that i should face my fears so i can by pass this problem and start sleeping like before. I had two fears a minor claustrophobia which i got rid of when i entered a really tight tunnel that leads to a cave 2 years ago and now i still have this height issue which scares me. I reserved today at 6 pm to go and do it but im really Freaking Out.

Few thoughts that I'm thinking of to get ready and do it (because i really wanna start sleeping at night and fast Ramadan insha'Allah) is that I'm a shia of Ali(as), and that we're the companions of Imam al mahdi! He's our protector and guider. If i will have such ireasonable fear then what do i worth really. And of course that Allah(swt) is protecting me and that fear is illogical produced by our own mind.

I really need all the motivation that i can get!

Salam,

Your journey of struggle is admirable. 

If your main anxiety comes from living a life which is not you, due to certain  circumstance you face currently and is taking its toll on you, it's best to sincerly pray to Allah to show you a way of how to announce your faith, or how to tackle with it .

He will definately put your mind and heart to rest.

Regarding phobia from heights etc, there are some fears, which are not a deal maker or breaker in our lives, if we don't face it.

For example, none of the respectable ladies of Islam would have want to jump off a cliff or deliberately put themselves in situations that would cause them harm, to get over their fear.

Prayer and caution was their weapon to fight fear.

There are lots of things which are encouraged in men in Islam and neither encouraged or discouraged for woman in Islam.

امير المؤمنين عليٌّ عليه‏السلام :

خِيارُ خِصالِ النِّساءِ شِرارُ خِصالِ الرِّجالِ: الزَّهوُ ، والجُبنُ ، والبُخلُ ؛ فإذا كانتِ المَرأةُ مَزهُوَّةً لَم تُمَكِّنْ مِن نَفسِها ، وإذا كانت بَخيلَةً حَفِظَت مالَها ومالَ بَعلِها ، وإذا كانت جَبانَةً فَرِقَت مِن كُلِّ شَيءٍ يَعرِضُ لَها .

 

Best qualities in a woman are the worst in men :

Pride

Thriftiness/ miserliness 

Timidity

etc....

( Probably you can translate fully better in Arabic )

Insha Allah , Allah rest your mind and heart in peace in the best way possible .

Edited May 27, 2016 by certainclarity

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Salam dear sister 

Please listen to zyarat Alay Yaseen and Surah Yaseen , i have heard that it has got great power in healing the mind and heart

http://www.ziaraat.org/audio/Aaleyasin.mp3

Also visit this site it has got great Duas

http://duas.org

Please dear sister do not do those dangerous things to get strong,  females are delicate and they cant handle dangerous tasks

[Hameedeh]

4 hours ago, yasahebalzaman.313 said:

So recently I'm not being able to sleep

Salam, Sister. Are you drinking a lot of caffeine in soda pop and coffee? If you are, this causes problems with your sleep.

4 hours ago, yasahebalzaman.313 said:

now i still have this height issue which scares me. I reserved today at 6 pm to go and do it but im really Freaking Out.

I'm not sure what activity you were planning to do today, but I pray that you get over the fear of heights. 

[yasahebalzaman.313]

16 hours ago, hameedeh said:

Salam, Sister. Are you drinking a lot of caffeine in soda pop and coffee? If you are, this causes problems with your sleep.

I'm not sure what activity you were planning to do today, but I pray that you get over the fear of heights. 

Sister i stopped caffeine of all kinds its been two weeks already. I'm sure that's not the case, if it was i would've been able to control it. However yesterday i went to bungee jump but i arrived to the top and i didnt. I was disapointed at myself i seriously thought i can to it.

[Hameedeh]

Bungee jumping was my guess. I am glad you did not go through with it. There have been reports of injuries (eye, spine, and neck), some so severe that it caused death. Fear of heights is normal. It keeps you from going places that are extremely dangerous.