Confession To The Public

[Inquisition]

I have comitted adultery 2 times with prostitutes and repented and lashed myself with a belt on my back and I have comitted adultery once again for the 3rd time

 

I am not married and I have a mental disorder called Bipolar Disorder and my psychiatrists have been switching medications for me for years

 

I wish for Allah to satisfy Himself through me, even if He lands upon me the harshest of punishments

 

I wish to return back the rights of the people

 

I will not be satisfied until Allah is satisfied and I am ready to be tortured to death that my Imams are not as ashamed as they are with me as they currently must be

 

I am not in a country where I may be punished and I have no family or friends here so I will carry out the punishment upon myself

 

What is the punishment our school of thought suggests to be carried?

 

I am ready to burn myself to death if it may please Allah

 

EDIT: No need to worry about pregnancy, condoms were used at all times

 

[Do not ridicule the post regardless of what things you may find to be humorous to you, the situation is serious]

Edited January 25, 2014 by Inquisition

[-Enlightened]

You should try muta next time. With those prostitutes

I know its makruh, but its better than haram

Edited January 25, 2014 by -Enlightened

[Inquisition]

You should try muta next time. With those prostitutes

I know its makruh, but its better than haram

 

And you care not about the stench of the 3 major sins currently upon my shoulders?

 

Do you think I can still be considered as a lover of Ahlul Bayt?

 

May Allah curse me and every hypocrite who fakes love towards my Imams while comitting henious crimes

[-Enlightened]

God forgives if you repent

Thats written in th quran , especially on adultery

Edited January 25, 2014 by -Enlightened

[guest022017b]

relax brother everyone commits sin, the only ifallibles are the Imams, every other person you can be sure is a sinner one way or another

and in regards to God it doesnt matter what sin it may be, there is no such thing as a "worse" or "better" sin , sin in reality is disobedience so you cannot claim yourself a worse or better sinner, so any kind of disobedience is equal , what is not equal is when a ignorant person causes a sin and when a prophet causes a sin, because the Prophet is more responsible before God while an ignorant person has never heard the voice of God and still has doubs and uncertainity in the heart
 

also you shouldnt make such posts publicly because there are people out there who are judgemental and would look at you differently when they have no right to

and finally dont forget that in the time of the Prophet , the Prophet heard of a case where a person came to him and told him that he was doing necrophilia with a dead person and asked if there is forgiveness for him, the Prophet was disturbed even by this and if i remember correctly even left this person , but then Allah revealed this verse

“Say: O my Servants who have transgressed against their souls! Despair not of the Mercy of Allah: for Allah forgives all sins: for He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Merciful.”

so chill out, read this dua:

http://www.duas.org/sajjadiya/s31.htm

and finally one more reality for you to deal with

this act you did you did because of a need, its not like it is somethign which you wil not be faced with in teh future again, so you must plan to deal with this in the future when it rises up again, so therefore you must plan to find somebody for mutah, so start searching vigroroulsy so that you can plan for next time that when the need arises that you dont fall into the same sin

so plan plan plan to avoid doing this again by finding a girl for mutah or a wife which is probably the most important factor here

 

[S Hussain]

And you care not about the stench of the 3 major sins currently upon my shoulders?

Do you think I can still be considered as a lover of Ahlul Bayt?

May Allah curse me and every hypocrite who fakes love towards my Imams while comitting henious crimes

May Allah (swt) forgive you

Try watching this lecture

This guys sin was worse, he raped a dead women, yet Allah forgave.

I would wanna say something but I fear that if I may be wrong..... So I say it but also say I may be incorrect and do not take my word for it.

If ur ready to die for Allah now by buring yourself then I say, REPEND verily Allah is of returing to mercy and LIVE for Allah, become the most pious, the most knowledgeable, don't let anyone know more quran that you, don't let anyone love the ahlulbayt more than you, and ask for forgivness till ur death bed.

Don't forget Allah mercy is Infinite and u shud completely change your life fast a lot aswell. Get involved with ur mosque.

Living for Allah as a pious person is jut as hard as dieing for Allah.

Don't take any actions in a rush and keep talk to a learned person about ur situation.

Also about u reapting the sin. I have heard if u sing and sinserly repent Allah forgives if u do it again and again sinserly repent Allah keep forgiving.

May Allah guide u and the world

Allah said he perfers the repentance of a person than a pious act of a pious person. Forgot the reference

Edited January 25, 2014 by Syed Hussain

[Waiting for HIM]

Repent, repent, repent.

And make a firm vow, a promise to Allah swt that if you ever did zana again, or even touched a female with a slight bad intention, or watched porn or done masturbation, you will fast continuous for 60 days, straight.

For your past sins:

1.repent

2.start salat all 5 at 3 times

3.start fasts now and go for straight 60 days, so you can taste your own punishment for past sins

..... Most important, QUIT professing your sins to people. Do not tell people of your sins. Just repent in front of Allah swt and quit announcing it to people. Telling ppl of your sins is a big sin in itself.

[S Hussain]

Hazrat hur stopped imam hussain (as) at karabala, yet when he changed imam forgave. Now imam hussain (as) is the slave of Allah (swt) if the slave mercy is so must imagine allahs.

What's worse zina or stopping the son of Zahra (as) for death. Allah forgives all

Edited January 25, 2014 by Syed Hussain

[Ali Musaaa :)]

The servants of the Lord of Mercy are those who walk humbly on the earth, and who, when the foolish address them, reply, ‘Peace’; those who spend the night bowed down or standing, worshipping their Lord, who plead, ‘Our Lord, turn away from us the suffering of Hell, for it is a dreadful torment to suffer! It is an evil home, a foul resting place!’ They are those who are neither wasteful nor niggardly when they spend, but keep to a just balance; those who never invoke any other deity beside God, nor take a life, which God has made sacred, except in the pursuit of justice, nor commit adultery. Whoever does these things will face the penalties: their torment will be doubled on the Day of Resurrection, and they will remain in torment, disgraced, except those who repent, believe, and do good deeds: God will change the evil deeds of such people into good ones. He is most forgiving, most merciful. People who repent and do good deeds truly return to God. [25:63-71]

[Inquisition]

Telling ppl of your sins is a big sin in itself.

 

I am doing it for Allah, I want to show Allah that I truly feel guilty and I am not ashamed to admit it to people.

 

 

 

The servants of the Lord of Mercy are those who walk humbly on the earth, and who, when the foolish address them, reply, ‘Peace’; those who spend the night bowed down or standing, worshipping their Lord, who plead, ‘Our Lord, turn away from us the suffering of Hell, for it is a dreadful torment to suffer! It is an evil home, a foul resting place!’ They are those who are neither wasteful nor niggardly when they spend, but keep to a just balance; those who never invoke any other deity beside God, nor take a life, which God has made sacred, except in the pursuit of justice, nor commit adultery. Whoever does these things will face the penalties: their torment will be doubled on the Day of Resurrection, and they will remain in torment, disgraced, except those who repent, believe, and do good deeds: God will change the evil deeds of such people into good ones. He is most forgiving, most merciful. People who repent and do good deeds truly return to God. [25:63-71]

 

 

Allah's message has finally arrived

 

So what were the repentance, belief and good deeds mentioned in the verse?

 

How are they performed?

[S Hussain]

Surah 25 verse 63-77

Read that and u will see.

It's like giving charity

Worshiping in the night

Fasting in the day

Sticking with truth

Saying peace to the ignorant. Meaning not arguing

Etc read it surah 25 verse 63-77

[Ali-F]

Allah is al-Rahman. Remember, it is one of the greatest sins, if you say "Allah will never forgive me".

However, you must repent, and stop. Say that you don't want to do this anymore. See the mustahaab' days (etc), where Allah swt answers the duas. E.g when it rains, or laylatul qadr. Also the 15th shaban. 

 

You can also take a spiritual trip to hajj, or e.g Karbala, and "change" there. Also, if you really, and really cannot stop then you have to get marriaged. I actually think it is wajib to do it in your situation.

 

- I will pray to Allah in my daily salats´, so that he, by the truth of Muhammad wa Ahle Muhammad, forgives you. 

[Ali Musaaa :)]

I am doing it for Allah, I want to show Allah that I truly feel guilty and I am not ashamed to admit it to people.

 

 

 

Allah's message has finally arrived

 

So what were the repentance, belief and good deeds mentioned in the verse?

 

How are they performed?

 

1. Repentance is sincerely asking Allah to forgive ones past sins. One ought to keep in mind they can't fool God. The repentance should be with tears of regret and a heart ready for change. This is the first step: recognising ones errors that have transgressed the Law's of Allah which have only been implemented for our benefit in the first place.

 

2. There are reports that say that a person in the midst of committing adultery is no longer a believer. Repeat to yourself the Shahadatayn and go make wudhu. Then perform two Rakahs of Salah for the forgiveness of your sins. Make du'a afterwards and beg for Allah's forgiveness and know Akhi that Allah never turns away from the sincere and broken hearted. God loves His servants more than the mother bird loves its young and He will respond to your request for He has made it binding upon Himself to do so: 

 

Thus says the Lord who made the earth, the Lord who formed it to establish it, the Lord is His name, 'Call to Me and I will answer you, and I will tell you great and mighty things, which you do not know.' [Jeremiah 33:2-3]

 

Because he holds fast to Me in love, I will deliver him;

I will protect him, because he knows My Name.

When he calls to Me, I will answer him;

I will be with him in trouble;

I will rescue him and honor him.

With long life I will satisfy him

and show him My salvation.

[Psalms 91:14-16]

 

 

 

God has echoed this promise throughout history in His Scriptures through various Prophets, and has done so again in the Qur'ān: Your Lord has said, ‘Call upon Me, and I will answer you!’... [40:60]

 

 

The worst thing anyone can do (and this is considered amongst the worst of sins behind Shirk) is thinking you are beyond God's Mercy and Forgiveness. You are not. Whilst you're still breathing and are fully conscious of what you are doing, you have the ability to change and turn to Allah.

 

Sorry akhi, its very late. Im falling asleep and can barely type. Forgive all mistakes and errors. I hope what I have written assists you, insha'Allah.

Edited January 25, 2014 by Ali Musaaa :)

[awaiting_for_the.12th]

We all have committed sins minor and sometimes major. Allah doesn't want to punish His creation so asking for punishment is not the right way to go around. The solution is to ask for Repentance. 

Punishment can cause physical pain but might not effect the soul (which is truly hurt) so Repentance is there to clean soul and take it back to its original state before sin.

[Robin Hood]

The only unforgivable sin is shirk.

And yes, we have all committed sins, minor or major (ghiba is a major sin that everybody commits it seems).

[guest022017b]

We all have committed sins minor and sometimes major. Allah doesn't want to punish His creation so asking for punishment is not the right way to go around. The solution is to ask for Repentance. 

Punishment can cause physical pain but might not effect the soul (which is truly hurt) so Repentance is there to clean soul and take it back to its original state before sin.

actually pain does heal the soul and does make sisn fall off

according to a hadith from imam ali "good deeds are not increased by pain and suffering for pain and suffering make the sins fall off like dried leaves of a tree"

 

disclaimer

this hadith i paraphrased, i dont remember this hadith verbatim but i am certain that i have retained the original meaning and not added any meaning to the original meaning or taken away from the original meaning in any way 

 

[baqar]

I have committed adultery 2 times with prostitutes and repented .

 

Did you see a doctor after the three episodes and get yourself checked for S.T.D.s (sexually transmittable diseases)?

 

That is most important.

 

What is the punishment our school of thought suggests to be carried?  I am ready to burn myself to death if it may please Allah

 

You are not allowed to punish yourself.

 

Repent that you will not do do it again. 

 

And leave it to God to decide what He wants to do.

 

And pray for His forgiveness.. 

 

Nothing else is required. 

 

Be happy that God has motivated you to turn to Him.

 

And thank Him for it.

 

That is all.

[Raven]

Let me get this straight, you're in the west but you couldn’t find anyone else to sleep with besides a prostitute? Heh

Edited January 25, 2014 by Raven

[guest022017b]

just remember find a way(for the future) to deal with this because it will arise again and you will need to deal with it in a halal way 

so start planning now and looking , dont wait until it is too late 

[Waiting for HIM]

OP: be very ashamed to admit your sins to people. You said you are doing it to show Allah, the same Allah swt orders us to hide our sins and don't confess in front of any other human. Islam has no public or private confession. You are liable to confess and repent only in front of your Lord Allah swt, and nobody else.

The only exception is an Islamic judge in case he wants you to detail your sins.

[PeaceLoving]

This confession is quite different.

 

Because his identity is not known.

 

He is just asking for advice, that is all.

 

I thin the confession which is forbidden in Islam does not apply here.

[IloveImamHussain]

Let me get this straight, you're in the west but you couldn’t find anyone else to sleep with besides a prostitute?  

 

Why is that so strange? People visit prostitutes all over the world, including every Western country. It is not always possible to find someone to satisfy your desires.  

[Waiting for HIM]

This confession is quite different.

 

Because his identity is not known.

 

He is just asking for advice, that is all.

 

I thin the confession which is forbidden in Islam does not apply here.

Brother, you need to understand the reasonS why Allah swt orders people to NOT DISCLOSE THEIR SINS. Repent and confess, and promise to never repeat only in front of Allah swt.

Repeating sins in front of others is wrong on so many levels, some including it induces in creating witnesses for your bad deeds (obviously he is a person and not a machine writing there), it helps promote sins, it helps gives people ideas of what else they could to go for makrooh and haram, and so on.

[Reza]

Are people surprised?  There are millions of people on this Earth who have done this.  The holier-than thou perfect angels on this website are not representative of the real world at large.

 

You know what you have to do, the only issue is your will to do it. 

[Raven]

Why is that so strange? People visit prostitutes all over the world, including every Western country. It is not always possible to find someone to satisfy your desires.  

Strange that no one was willing to sleep with him besides a paid prostitute...seeing that he lives in the West. 

Edited January 26, 2014 by Raven

[5a49]

Go pray and read Dua, who cares about your sins in this forum, no one will forgive your mistakes but Allah..

 

again, drama drama drama..

[hasanhh]

If you an't married, it ain't "adultery" . It's fornicating.

[Reza]

Strange that no one was willing to sleep with him besides a paid prostitute...seeing that he lives in the West. 

 

The West is an individualistic and lonely place for many.  That might be the only option for some.  You don't know his life. 

[Inquisition]

Let me get this straight, you're in the west but you couldn’t find anyone else to sleep with besides a prostitute? Heh

 

I am in the farthest of the east and the Asians think that a pant is the only thing you can wear and that they have the right to be everywhere and females mock me when I try to have a relationship with them through a contract with rules

 

That ideology about the west being the only lands of sinful sexuality is out of date, the Asians replaced their Kimono and dresses and with this thing I don't know what its name is almost 2 decades ago:

 

But that subject is not the major point here

 

Brothers and sisters, please listen to this as it comes sincerely from my heart and Allah is a witness to that

 

I thank you all for being the only ones who supported me with this issue when I was in need of help and I am lonely in a far away land

 

All I can do is type in the forum - may Allah bless you

 

Please do not ridicule the help I received here just because it was on a forum in the internet, Allah sends his help in various ways and as long as it has been as effective as it has been to me then it was a help from Allah because nothing happens unless Allah wills for it to happen

 

I believe that now after this confession and after this thread and now that I should start to prepare myself through changing my way of thinking towards sexuality will be my great obstacles against this major sin

 

I feel that it's about time I teach you all about how it happened now that I pondered upon it so you can protect yourselves through my experience

 

All of those 3 times I was quite stressful at first

All of those 3 times I simply said to myself I'm going to a massage place to release the stress

All of those 3 times I was trapped in an extreme sexual urge after seeing the beauty of those prostitutes who were about to massage me

 

Do you know that Allah DOES NOT say do not commit adultery in the Qur'an in this verse?

 

Do not go near to adultery. Surely it is a shameful deed and evil, opening roads (to other evils)" (Quran 17:32)

 

If you have read it well, Allah is saying do not go near and he's not saying do not commit adultery

It's because when you go near adultery, you're trapped and it's almost impossible to escape

 

So in my situation it should have been, do not go to those massage shops, you should know that you'll be trapped in a sexual urge that you cannot escape

 

An anology I can give you is how it is when a hunter advises you not to go near the leopard and then complain that you lost a body part or your life, you know he will surely catch you and harm you

 

Peace

[Repentant]

And you care not about the stench of the 3 major sins currently upon my shoulders?

 

Do you think I can still be considered as a lover of Ahlul Bayt?

 

May Allah curse me and every hypocrite who fakes love towards my Imams while comitting henious crimes

 

If you repent then who are we to say anything? People respect those who rarely commit sins but also respect those who sin and stopped and seeked forgiveness. Allah (swt) forgives... so just focus on your religion and you will be fine inshAllah. 

[baqar]

If you have read it well, Allah is saying do not go near and he's not saying do not commit adultery

It's because when you go near adultery, you're trapped and it's almost impossible to escape

 

It is good brother that you realize your mistake.

 

You are right.

 

It is so easy to make such mistakes.

 

Thanks for warning us.

 

God be with you

 

 

Peace

 

Peace to you to

[Ali Musaaa :)]

If you an't married, it ain't "adultery" . It's fornicating.

If I am not mistaken, according to some Scholars the verses in the Ayat I mention extend to this act as well. God knows best.

[mesbah]

ولا تقلتوا انفسکم ان الله کان بکم رحیما

And do not kill yourself Allah was and is merciful with you

Sura nisa, Qur'an

Losing the hope in Allah's forgiveness (A's) is worse than the sin

Unveiling one's own sins is worse than the sins

Reference: Qur'an & ahaadeeth.

[tearsofregret]

Asalam Alkyum,

 

I know he confessed his sins. I do too on here because only few people know me and in life people close to me because of the guilt. Sometimes, the stress of sins gets to so much one has to tell someone just to hear that it will be alright :(. I know people shouldn't tell their sins but sometimes we sinners need someone to speak to in order to lightened our burdens.

 

Ma'Salam.

[:Sami II]

(salam)

 

You mentioned you have bi-polar disorder .

According to medical research , people with this disorder during the manic phase has increased sexual promiscuity resulting in indiscriminatory sexual behaviours with impulsive compulsive tendencies .

Under :Islamic ruling , you are not in your right mind and your condition does not allow you to have full control of your faculties  therefore you will be not judged with those that are fully aware .

therefore seek repentance and offer :duas for your health.

I don't agree with the medication that is used to treat such conditions but that's not the question being asked here.

I offer you :Duas for your forgiveness , for your wellness and good health.

 ws