I dont know how to say this. posting on a guest account for obvious reasons though. This is so hard to explain and write because what im feeling cannot be put in words. I need advice I know that this is morally and Islamiclly wrong but i have cut myself in the past (6 mnths ago i started, and it continued for about a month) and have attempted to commit suicide. (due to sexual assault but thats another story) I do not have these thoughts anymore (alhamdulilah, thanks to prayer and dua) but I still need advice on how to ensure that I will not try to kill myself again, and that I am safe from myself, and at least happy. Because I cannot remember the last time i was truly, truly happy.
jazakum Allah Khayran.