I feel I'm not ambitious enough about financial growth. I just don't get winded up about it. Even though I need to get settled ASAP, pronto to turn my 3 year old nikkah into a marriage (rukhsati). But even apart from the marriage pre and post expenses. I want to get settled. I just fear the entire job/gig/work searching process and just can't get myself to do it. I see people starting with whatever comes their way and eventually landing some good job. And I just sit and wait for something 'perfect' and 'optimal' to come my way....
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Please suggest some al-Islam pdf content or personal advice for me to get excited about getting financially ambitious and eventually settled....
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I say financially ambitious because otherwise I like to study, keep myself up to date, keep my deen in place...