1. I have been experiencing extreme doubts whilst performing ghusl, and would perform it a minimum of 4 times in a row, spending hours in the shower trying to make sure I do it right.
I would be too concerned with touching things, making them najis then this devoid my ghusl. For example the shower walls, the shower head (its detachable so I take it off the wall when washing my body and neck during ghusl), etc.
Eventually I'm satisfied.
2. But then doubts kick in later again, when im finally out and done, for example I feel some sort of movement feeling in my private part, I check to look for any discharge, there is none, not even a drop, except the moisture which is found within the urethra. I still get a tissue, put it inside to dry that moisture off.
Now I am left thinking if its necessary to perform ghusl again, despite having it done it numerous times, hours and hours in the shower on the same day.
Does no.2 require me to perform ghusl again? I'm too afraid to pass it off as nothing. I'm genuinely worried I'm developing OCD disorder and it's making me physically and emotionally drained, I could cry right now..
I don't know what to do, and I'm constantly trying to wash the impurities off of me, my hands even when there's nothing to wash off.
Kind regards
A troubled youth..