Salam Alaykum.
I have lost all hope in myself and have therefore come here for help. A little over a year ago a friend introduced me to pornography and masturbating. I haven't spoken to this friend ever since and have completely blocked him out of my life, but it has been difficult to refrain doing this sin.
Everytime I masturbate i cry and seek for forgiveness from Allah, but i have read the Hadith which says "repeatedly committing a sin and asking for forgiveness from Allah is like mocking Allah." (Imam Reza as)
I don't want to mock Allah because I really love him and I have noticed that ever since I have committed this great sin, calamities and hardships in my life have been increasing.
I have lost hope in myself because every time i stay away from the sin for like 2 weeks, Shaytan always gets me. Afterwards I feel really bad and i have tried so many times to stay away from this but it is of no use. You guys are now my only resort I have left.
Can you please suggest something to keep away from the sin and stop doing it forever? I have tried fasting but that doesn't work?
*Also plz dont suggest something like marriage or muttah marriage as i am only 14 and i don't want anyone to know about this sin even my parents*