You're not alone sister, I'm a recovering addict myself, specifically from methamphetamine and I remember first accepting Islam during my addiction and seeing the truth and I'll say this: Relapse is a part of recovery. But don't give up. Remember the Dua from Surah 18:10. "O our Lord! Give us mercy from Yourself and guide us rightly through our predicament." Ramadan Mubarak sister 

I was informed that today NIACouncil youtube channel said in a live broadcast that not only have people in Iran been martyred, and infrastructure bombed, there are UNESCO sites in Iran have been bombed. I googled to see Which unesco sites in iran have been bombed? It's already there, and it says:  These sites are protected under international law, and their damage has raised international alarm.  Golestan Palace (Tehran): Suffered damage to its hall of mirrors, with shattered intricate mirrorwork, broken windows, and damaged molding due to shockwaves and debris from nearby strikes. Chehel Sotoun Palace (Isfahan): Experienced damage to its 17th-century structure, including broken latticework and shattered windows. Masjed-e Jāme (Isfahan): The country's oldest Friday mosque sustained damage. Khorramabad Valley: Structures in the vicinity of this prehistoric site were affected. Nagsh-e Jahan Square (Isfahan): Images showed plumes of smoke near this World Heritage site following air strikes.

Salam Salam The second relevant discussion from the third level. It also comes up about this. It’s clone sperm cloning human head transplant, where inheritance are rules fall when you transplant a human head from one body to another brain transplant and one teacher was discussing brain wave transplant, or electromagnetic transfer or the possibility of transferring the soul at the moment of death to a clone body, etc..   Whether the clone would be an exact copy or obviously, the conclusion is a clone of someone who have a different soul wallahu Alam 

Salam The irrelevant sub discretion at the third level about inseminating a woman with her light husband’s sperm that was frozen or the sperm of a celebrity scholar or a person a random person and how it affects inheritance safety if that person was dead a long time for a few months he’s also very interesting in discussion

Salaam The average speaker who speaks from the pulpit, maybe ignorance of many narrations because to be fair in the main four blocks are 45,000 in wasail it’s 35,000 for Hakam I have to look it up for the ocean of light it’s I know it’s over 100,000 so many of them might necessarily not have read those things or been in discussions with those are mentioned However, most of the senior scholars were talking about those we reached the level itjitshad is very rare that they hear I see a narration they’re unaware of or haven’t heard of it just comes down to the science of the narrative and they weaken or don’t believe in things so they don’t apply it As long as you can read the Arabic, no problem following akhbari my only problem here in the west is people claimed to follow that school of thought they can’t read Arabic or they don’t wanna follow the rules. I met a certain convert to claim that School but he listened to music. He said he told me he didn’t follow white arab Islam. with Matam you could make an argument both ways because we have the narration about Zainab and the cabbage we have the narration of the companion knocking out of his teeth we have in the holy prophet, peace, and blessing upon him, not reprimanding him or remaining silent. We have the narration about there is no grief or otherwise translated extreme grief, but the grief for Imam Hussayn as etc. as tatbir and it’s many forms, some older summer, newer, most of them seem to originate within the middle ages however, we do have one narration that states whoever sheds one drop of blood for my grandfather will be in paradise, but that is indicated of like poking the finger with a needle or hitting the top of the head in grief, not using a physical weapon When I was younger, I very much to post it when daesh rose up in Syria. I became much more relaxed about it because I said well if some people are striking their backs, other people are cutting people‘s head in the middle age man I look at it that it’s a minority of people who do this the more attention you give to it the more controversy you make for and against it you’re not gonna stop people who want to do it from doing it. You’re not gonna stop people from complaining about it who are against it better as long as no one is isn’t clearly breaking the laws of religion to say much.  I also tend to take very precaution views of the narrations myself. Sometimes it’s harder when you have a wife and kid with certain things. wallahu Alam