So recently I'm not being able to sleep cause I had 3 rough past years with my conversion, had to pass through a lot, work and education altogether. I started having 2 weeks ago some very slight anxiety attacks at night that were keeping me from sleep. My heart starts bumping fast as soon as I'm falling asleep and my mind wakes up all of a sudden. My heart is fine now I was able to control it, but i caught a very bad habit along the way, and a very bad sleeping pattern. This was really draining. Until my friend who's an expert in psychology and a medical analyst told me that i should face my fears so i can by pass this problem and start sleeping like before. I had two fears a minor claustrophobia which i got rid of when i entered a really tight tunnel that leads to a cave 2 years ago and now i still have this height issue which scares me. I reserved today at 6 pm to go and do it but im really Freaking Out.
Few thoughts that I'm thinking of to get ready and do it (because i really wanna start sleeping at night and fast Ramadan insha'Allah) is that I'm a shia of Ali(as), and that we're the companions of Imam al mahdi! He's our protector and guider. If i will have such ireasonable fear then what do i worth really. And of course that Allah(swt) is protecting me and that fear is illogical produced by our own mind.
I really need all the motivation that i can get!