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I am a proud Shia, but I've come across a bump. Almost all the muslims I know are Sunni and I know that Shiaism is correct. I'm just not sure why anymore. Help please? I'm really young, not going to state my age, but under 15.

Salam, So basically right now i have a decision to make of what to do with my life, im going to keep it a bit vague since people on the internet do not need to know the details of my personal life. So option 1 is to follow my deen to the best of my ability and do what I want with my life and still respect my family option 2 is to selectively follow my deen and do what i want with my life and option 3 is to not follow my deen and listen to my parents (they are sunni and would love to choose my future, career, etc.) Option 3 is easiest but most unhappy outcome, but geniunely having a hard time deciding between the three. I know option 1 is right but i really change my mind like every day because I cant decide and I dont know what i want, like I seriously dont know. I know whats right but what would be your guys advice in helping me come to a decision? Yes i pray and make dua but i still find myself at some point in the day thinking about option 2 or 3 seriously because they are easier. Its upsetting to me because usually I can make a decision and stick with it and follow it through but i find myself unsure right now... Im just wasting time not making a decision. Like ive never felt it be so difficult to just follow the right option, I mean i started wearing hijab even when people told me not too and I became shia despite being surrounded by sunnis who thought it was wrong. I feel like I dont know whats wrong with me and why I cant just make the right decision and follow through and I find myself mostly just avoiding thinking about this problem... and the ways i avoid thinking about it cause me to become further from my deen (ie listening to music, wasting money, going out a lot with friends and wasting money, wasting time etc.) Any advice is greatly appreciated. ws