Salam Thanks a lot for answering my questions. Sister, why don't you just cut-off your relationship with this man, stay away from him. Are sexual needs that important? can you not find that love and affection with your kids. Why trouble your mind so much, keep it fresh, try to avoid such feelings and thoughts and simply concentrate on your kids and their well-being. Start working, oh pick up an activity and stay busy. Promise yourself you'll never see, meet or speak to that man. He is a non-mehram! Speak to Allah after your prayers, he's musabib-ul-asbaab, he'll find a way for you inshallah,