(salam) Thank you everyone, Queen, Khair un Nisa, Spizo, and Master Chief for the help. It really means alot to me. Spizo i do have yaqeen that Allah can change everything and give me what i want. On the other hand i am a human, and sometimes i get influenced by others saying that it will not happen. I do not loose hope by what others say. But, yes i am a human being i do get bothered by it, and depressed. I have complete faith in Allah and the wasila of Ahle Bayt. I know i have done a lot sins, i have repented but maybe im still being punished i do not know. I just do know what to do anymore