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  1. Thank you brother, It’s interesting what you’re recommending me, hopefully it will be affective. I will try to talk about this to my psychologist and see where it will go. All my prayers.
  2. Salam alaykom, I’m seriously fearful, I’m in the worst situations. I’ve extreme intrusive thoughts of shirk in my mind and mostly during prayer. I am not able to say the word Allah because a lot of images are trying to be associated with. I can’t pray correctly it takes almost an hour to finish. I can’t do dhikr, read quran proprely because of the extreme thoughts I fear my salat has been corrupted. I know I’ve talked about this issue in the past, but these days it got really worse and I’m seeing a psychologist, I’ve seen him only for just 2 sessions, we haven’t started yet any therapy just " questions/answers " about my life. I’m tired of suffering. Anyone know how to get out of this calamity? I tried meditation a bit, but thoughts are like stuck. Muslims talk about Allah, but I feel like I am so ignorant about Him. I know about the concept of Tawheed, but I am not living it because of the hard obstacles I am going through. Any advice plz?
  3. Wa alaykom esalam, you are right brother you’ve told me this before, but after months I’ve read that shirk is to sin against God am I right? The verse, I am not surely right according to my understanding it speaks about those who sinned against themselves. So this is where I started to raise questions and got really scared. You tell me if I’m wrong brother.
  4. Great advice thank you brother.
  5. Wa Alaykom esalam dear brother, I am speechless, your words went through my heart, may Allah prepare for you a seat in Jannah for what you just said to me. It’s so dark being lonely and feeling like doors are closed infront of you, it’s hard hearing such words, when the only words you hear is from the shaytan. This is a gift from Allah what you just brought to me. I am thankful. And in your case for how long did you deal with these thoughts? And for how long did it took them to go away?
  6. Thank you for your answer brother, but I’m suffering because of my mental issues and fear that I’ve committed something unintentionally. I have wasawas since last year and can’t take them off. While doing remembering Allah I’m scared that I’ve associated the dhikr with the images without knowing. I have been scared and anxious about the future
  7. What about the verse that says God forgives all sins except shirk? Is it before death or after? And does He forgives even done by a muslim?
  8. Maybe I have OCD, but the problem I didn’t know how to deal with these thoughts so I started interacting with them. Like when shirk thoughts popped in my mind, I would say that the face of someone’s man coming in mind and trying to mess up my faith, that it I would give it a name like " oh that’s the Imam Mahdi (ajf) " to change to what the shaytan is trying to do and have an appreciation or a good idea like trying to switch a bad idea into a good one, but it just got worse, I don’t know if you understand me. But then later I started having more and more of these thoughts, faces of men considered as Imam Mahdi (ajf) to be considered as astaghfirullah and my mind would go crazy. Because I gave it a good idea I appreciated them, trying not to have bad ideas and shirk thoughts that’s what I was trying to get away from. The problem is because I interacted with them, every time I want to connect with God, these thoughts were all the time popping and it got a mixed, weird, scary, really anxious vibes of what to do??? I was like I tried to maie it look something else, I liked it because I associated the thought with Imam Mahdi (ajf) but then I trying to remember Allah and still having them thoughts got me anxious, I was like damn I can’t take off the " likeness to the Imam ". UGHHH it’s very mental torturing. I don’t know if unintentionally did shirk while remembering Allah because I showed love to the thoughts by naming it the Imam Mahdi (ajf). I am sooo scared and lost, my mind is really corrupted.
  9. Salam, yes you are absolutly right. It’s a lot of factors in my life and mental health issues that affected my mind and soul. But I’m just scared that because of my corrupted mind I did shirk unintentionally. I know despairing from God’s mercy is the second sin. But what should I do if I have committed unintentionally shirk because of so many problems in my life? Am I going not a muslim anymore and going for hell forever?
  10. Salam alaykom brothers and sisters, I’ve been really worried since the past few days because of my corrupted mind. I always get images of human beings in my mind that are all the time in my head that I can’t remove and whenever I try to do dhikr they are here. I’m scared that unintentionally I’ve done shirk. It has been killing me. Even when I’m not paying attention and doing dhikr I get these thoughts. I try to not to think of anything but they are legit stuck in my head feeling as if I’ve commited shirk without realizing. I do believe in Allah as The One Lord the concept of Tawhid, that there’s nothing like Him and He’s like no One. I have been struggling a lot for years as depression, loneliness, overthinking all the time 24/7, having a failure life, always doubting my self in everything, I don’t know of that has to do with whatever I’m going through. But you might have an idea because of my past posts of what kind of life I’ve went through. I know I’m not alone, but I’m struggling to get closer to God. I always have these images since a year, I’m worried for my future if I will go to hell forever.
  11. Salam, yes because I know there isn’t just me who’s going through that and I needed to reach out, knowing many feel this way. To be at least a voice of the voiceless, to show hope in all of us that Allah is The best planner, He is preparing something which is unbelievable. In dark times, I always remember the story of Imam Musa Al-Kadhim (عليه السلام) all the years he spent in prisons. His patience, his optimism, his obedience and no matter what he accepted whatever happened by being grateful. You are all in my prayers.
  12. Thank you, I do definitely relate my situation through your words. It isn’t easy honestly. To be surrounded by people and still feel like a stranger, it shows the lack of closeness in relationship, even the ones I consider them " close ". It’s really a feeling of loneliness. I hate it, you want to be close to someone, they offend you unintentionally just by being yourself. The judgment they have on you, the differences and indifferences makes you feel like you have no choice to isolate your inner self, chain them or suppress them, because no one understands you. I hate to isolate myself in my room for hours. There’s a toxic vibe to which I attach myself to the comfort zone. It’s a dream killer, but it’s like a bad friend who accepted you. I don’t want to be accepted, but just I want a real connection. Not to be treated as a another face in the crowd. Not be treated as someone they " know " who is this person is. I don’t also want to hang with " closes " ones who use you as a pillow to cry on their problems. To not even look up after you, not ask you " how are you?" with sincerity that is leaving the " you’re just a hanger with us. I don’t want to be accepted, I want real connection. I want people of quality, but I have to ask myself, am I also " that type " of person? I guess by realizing how I am with others, I could give an yes answer. But maybe I’m doing something that is leading to such type of relationship. I don’t know I guess I got to meditate upon that. Jazak’Allah Khair.
  13. Salam, Thank you for sharing inspiring words. Insh’Allah I will work with it. It’s not easy. But I do believe Allah azwj will help me and all the believers who are going through those situations. Jazak’Allah kheir
  14. That’s very nice to hear this, may Allah bless you with the best mash’Allah and ease your affairs. You are in my prayers too brother. Read the verse that will help you in preach truth to others, say the things that Allah will want you to say: رَبِّ اشْرَحْ لِي صَدْرِي وَيَسِّرْ لِي أَمْرِي وَاحْلُلْ عُقْدَةً مِّن لِّسَانِي يَفْقَهُوا قَوْلِي Translation "O my Lord! Widen for me my bossom (grant me self-confidence, contentment, and boldness); And ease my task for me; And make loose the knot (i.e. the defect restricting speech) from my tongue; So they may understand what I say"
  15. Salam alaykom guest Salam, how are you doing? It's been a year you've posted this post, I'm wondering how are you doing? Have you felt any change, are things better insh'Allah? You know, I'm going through exactly the same thing as what in your post you described your situation. I'm sorry to hear what you went through or maybe still going '' hopefully not'' through this.
  16. Thank you may Allah bless you, I do want to talk about religion, it’s something that I love talking about. It’s a topic that’s always in my mind. But because of many trials I’m going through, it’s making things complicated. I’m mentally suffering and maybe I do have OCD, it’s things I’m constantly trying to avoid, but these days they got more intense and I’m legit always crying, wanting to sleep and be like this forever. But sometimes I do find comfort, when I try to control my mind the way it should be. It’s a difficult battle. All my prayers to the ones who are going through the same situation as me, it’s very unpleasant. You legit feel the worst human being to be alive and it’s worse if you are alone and in the west. Well hobbies, I don’t really do anything anymore, the fact my mind is always stuck with specific toxic ideas, suffering because of them, even if I wanted to do something, I’ll stop because it would disturb me while doing whatever I’d be doing, you could legit not imagine me in class. Very silent, but yeah. Btw I keep reading for example in prayers or dhikr to keep concentrating on Allah, but how do you think well of Him? I mean we can’t see Him, neither touch or anything, He’s infinite. What is meant by thinking of Him, because whenever I try there are bad images that pops in my head, I try to remove them, I feel like a mushrik. I need mental advices if it’s possible. What do you think during salah let’s say?
  17. Salam, yes you are right. I always tell myself Allah is testing me and I have to be patient and grateful. I’m just really tired of drinking from the same cup everyday, cup of loneliness, depression, regrets, anxiety, bad habits, and many bad energies I’m struggling with. But hey, if God tested to closest ones to Him, why not me? I guess the answer, every single being is fighting battles, because this is this dunya. Life is not here, The Life isn’t a place where bad energies belong to. All of you brothers and sisters are in my prayers. Allah knows what followers of truth feel, to be in a world of illusion and having many enemies, it makes you lonely. The taste of life is so bitter, it feels like drowning in an ocean of emotions. But I gotta appreciate the small things that I take for granted. Easier said than done, but alhamdouliah while I’m remembering them. But do you have any suggestions for perfecting the soul while living in the west? It feels hard and I feel like the closer I want to be to Allah, more lonely I become why? This society kills something I’m trying to found out what it is.
  18. Insh’Allah you will meet the Imam of the Zaman ((صلى الله عليه وآله وسلم)). Beautiful way of thinking, it inspires me. You are in my prayers.
  19. Salam dear brothers and sisters, I'm very lonely, I legit spend most of the time alone. I feel alone in this world, even tho I'm around people sometimes, I do have '' friends '', we see each other sometimes, but there's a lot of things that bother me about them. I want to meet someone, but for many reasons I feel I'm not ready, gotta take care of my studies, gotta find a job, but I go to school full time so yeah. I'm overthinking, I have negative intrusive thoughts that I'm trying to control, but it's hard. I procrastinate a lot even tho I still have interest to do certain things. I'm tired of living this way. I feel as a stranger in this world. I want to get closer to Allah, but because of bad thoughts it just keeps me far. I have years of qadha and got a few years ago a tattoo with good intentions but it is badly labeled about God, I can't keep my mind straight trying to remove bad thoughts. Shirk ones, I keep saying things to control my mind, but because of my lack of self esteem, I doubt my deen. I'm tired and lonely, I'm living in darkness of this world. I want to meet someone and love them, marry them, build my life with them, but I don't know. living in the west is hard. I have no body to talk to. I thought about seeing a psychologist, but it cost a lot for each session so yeah.
  20. Salam Alaykom, could you plz explain to me in your words what’s about?
  21. Salam brother, Yes I am overthinking a lot, I don’t want to despair of the mercy of Allah, but God forgives shirk if they become muslims, right? So if you a muslim, is it the same? and that person who asked the question to Al-Sayyid Ali Al-Sistani, are they asking about muslims or the one who isn’t muslim?
  22. True brother, it’s just my insecurity and anxiety that makes me feels think of myself. May God bless you all thank you
  23. Yes a cover up will be great, but does that mean that my destiny has changed or I’m still a muslim?
  24. They take too much time to answer, once I asked a question and never got a reply. Maybe because they receive too much questions, but Inshallah I will do it. it’s true brother that Al hamdoulilah I am still alive, but I’m pretty scared of the ayah that God says He forgives whatever He wants, except for shirk. I need solid proof, mostly when I’m insecure, have 0 self-esteem, overthink all the time, etc I need something that will convince me that He does forgive. Inshallah
  25. No I’m planning on removing it, but wait what does that mean? Actually I don’t know how much exactly it takes to go away, but what about the prayers while having it, are they accepted? Was I a mushrik? God says He doesn’t forgive shirk ugh.. Am I going forever to hell? See, I always have those thoughts. It’s killing me. Thank you for your advice brother
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