Salam Alaykum everyone,
First of all, I want to wish everyone a blessed Ramadan.
May The Almighty Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) forgive all our sins, accept our prayers and fasts and accept our wishes, InshAllah.
In the past, I committed some disgusting and terrible sins. (watching p*rn and mastur....)
I did this for two years or so. Those two years were very dark years because of these sins.
I knew that what I was doing was not right. So on one day I left it all behind me (Thank God!) and everything is going well (Alhamdullillah).
But I do have a few questions now:
1. I know now, that when discharge takes place, you have to do Ghusl Junub, butw hen I began with these sins, I didn't do Ghusl Junub afterwards. I didn't do it, because I didn't know that when discharge takes place you have to do Ghusl. And I did read my prayers that time. So my first question is: Were my prayers valid?
2. I'm very ashamed to say this, but I also committed these sins in the Holy Month of Ramadan. In 2019, I mastu.... on two days (Astaghfirullah) (didn't watch p*..) and in 2020 I watched p*... once (Astaghfirullah) (didn't mastu...). I read on Ayatollah Sistani's website that you have to do Kaffarah to make up these days. But I didn't understand it very well. So my question is: What do I need to do to make up these days? Do I need to redo only those days of Ramadan or do I have to perform 60 days of Ramadan for every sin I committed? How much poor people do I need to feed? Do I have to pay for something? Please help me out here.
I'm sorry for the gross picture I may have created in your minds, but I really need help. I want to make things up again and I don't want to be that person anymore.
I want to make things up with The Almighty Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى). I would really appreciate your help!
Wassalam,
Taha