RepentantMomin

My sincere thoughts and prayers for you as another Brother in faith. I believe there are different ways Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) tests us. Such tribulations help a believer shed of his/her sins if Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) wills. Brother If you don't mind me asking, whom did you see for mental therapy? I believe I need someone who could sit and regularly take me through my faith as a muslim. I know none other than Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) and through his permission, our holy Imam (A.J.T.F) can tell if we have succeeded in this life. May be that's what we need is Imam e Zamana (A.J.T.F) coming to our assistance and guide us well to Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى). Just Imam's hand over my head with permission from Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) is what I yearn for at this point.

Assalamoalaikum Brother, Thanks a bunch! I'm indeed giving my best to not miss my prayers. I'm regular with them. I also try to do Dua e Mashlool, Dua e Tawassul and Dua e Kumail every week. I used to feel natural bond with lot closeness earlier but my thoughts have disturbed this connection. I think this partly also has been causing me a lot of pain. As you know every soul knows it's origin and destination i.e. Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى). I hope my such doubts/current situation aren't leading me to an unforgivable deed and deprive me of being in presence of Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) along with sincere believers on Day of Qiyamat.

Walaikumassalaam Dear Brother, I appreciate much for your advice. I understand and agree with what Br.Ejaz and you have advised. The main fear iI have is after having read various forms of Shirk which includes shirk of thoughts. The accursed enemy has deluded and traumatized much that I sometime have to shake my head, give a serious thought on Allah's tawheed and Shaitan is an accursed enemy. Since we can't see Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) of course as he is a creator and Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) has created certain creatures whom our eyes can't see, I have attacking thoughts about how someone is Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى). Just recently I have decided to not worry about such thoughts and have trust in calling Allah's name as Allah himself has named himself in Holy Qur'an. My minds imagination especially has been traumatizing. I have as well contacted a few shia psychotherapists to deal with such problem. Yesterday was Ashura and I have been pleading to (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) to send Imam Hussain, provide relief for once and all! I'm really disappointed about my grave sinful past. Never realized how destructive I have been in my life and didn't value the gift of being born with faith that Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) has granted. Worth of a diamond is only recognized when you need it the most. Many also fail to realize to defend such previous Gem. Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) is the creator and to him alone I belong. There is no doubt Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) is the only God and none can be like him nor take his place. He's been ever existing and the most merciful.

Brother, Another brother here. Thanks a bunch for the advise and guiding me to someone who could assist. I agree that I need to take a break and I'm currently implementing this strategy. My worst fear is since these thoughts seem to linger and persist, hopefully I haven't been charged with Shirk. I love Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) a lot and seek his guidance through his beloved 14 masumeen. May Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى), noor al ardhi wa samawaat guide us on sirat al mustaqeem.

I have been through such experience in MLM. I used to work with a brand in India promoting educational packages. Among the targeted are high school kids and teenagers desperately searching to earn money. I was slowly and eventually pulled into the business. I found that it paid me money but required enormous sales skill. To get to the main point, it almost feels as an addiction and brainwashing over a period of time in hopes of setting your business and dreams. A person hits the rock bottom when such companies offering MLM are found later to collect all money and either get arrested or filing bankruptcy. Either way, these companies are best at scamming showing you long term dreams however a person fails to recognize the adverse affect on self and others they are dealing. Sometimes you ruin your close relations in process, you spend more time on promoting MLM whereas a person fails to realize their better side of talent and last but not the least, your religious life is also affected at a later stage when realizing your actions. I'll like to ask the sister whom you are trying to help to realize her higher potential in starting her own business/professional trade.

Assalamoalaikum Everyone, I know many before have posted and have seeked help with regards to negative thoughts and waswas. I have been especially suffering from wrong thoughts since almost 4 months and I have been in an excruciating mental pain. I constantly have been trying to fight and ward off Shirk thoughts from my mind. These begun during my salat in the month of Ramadhan. I have been repenting to Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) since the beginning of the year due to my sinful past and in the due process have been afflicted with such a problem. These thoughts are related to constantly proving the ever existence of Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى), how Prophet Adam was created and all the events as described in Quran. When the events or waswas started to happen, it begun with thought about the existence of evil and why does it exist. They then slowly developed to cause an unrest and me trying to prove that Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) is the only creator, Shaytan as in Iblis is the accursed enemy and Hazrat Adam is the first messenger. These thoughts keep on repeating in mind and sometimes in the due process questions about Allah are being targeted. I have to literally give a thought about Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) and when I take his name, am diligent about not associating anyone with it. These thoughts have occupied my mind with such a great deal that my earlier interest and love in performing prayers, reciting Quran and reading Duas seem to have been lost. I feel an unrest within my soul and I'm unable to sleep peacefully. I have been crying and pleading to see Imam e Zamana (A.J.T.F), cure me with permission of Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى), from such affliction. I think the problem of my thoughts is since my earlier conscious and peace in my prayers and Dhikr referring to Allah have been disturbed. I also fear if my faith has been shaken and if I will meet Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) with his pardon for my sinful past as a Muslim and lover of 14 masumeen. I do not despair of Allah's mercy however am in search for someone's guidance and if anyone has experienced such things in the past. How were they able to overcome such thoughts? I think of visiting a psychiatrist however will like to know of someone who's a Shia or atleast a Muslim to counsel me well. Do anyone have recommendations within US? I reside in KY. Thanks for reading through and all the thoughts are very much appreciated.

Depending on the language you speak or prefer listening, there are many Shia mosques and centers in Chicago. I have been to IEC Husaini and lectures there mostly happen in Urdu. I believe they also do English programs. Other good religious center I have heard about is Masoom.