Salams Everyone, first time poster here!
This has been on my mind for almost 10 years now and I have joined Shiachat with the intention of getting some advice.
To summarise, about 10 years ago, I was diagnosed with a terminal condition. I didn't tell my family (and still haven't) as they would be devastated and I couldn't put them through that and I would still never tell them to save them the pain. Instead, I kept it to myself and I turned to Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) and I prayed, and prayed hard - vowing to go to visit the Imam (عليه السلام) in either Iraq or Iran - whereve