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RepentantServant

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  1. I find myself coming on here from time to time just to vent for some reason. So here I am. Today I committed what I feel is a major sin. It’s a sin that pertains to a certain lifestyle I gave up a while ago. I haven’t committed this sin for over 3 years & I was convinced that I was done with that lifestyle & that I was done sinning in that way. What I learned is to never underestimate the devil, as he always has ways of deceiving you & getting you to do things you never thought you would do ever again. After I got home from committing that sin, I’ve just been crying & crying & balling my eyes out, pleading for forgiveness from God. I’ve never been such a baby like this in a long time. The guilt, shame, regret, anxiety has been eating me alive. The knowing that I have absolutely no excuse whatsoever that lead me to committing that sin, the clear defiance of the Creator, the just... I don’t even know what to say. I made a mistake willfully & I just can’t believe I did it. I’ve never slipped up like that for over 3 years & have always said no to it, yet it just happened, totally unexpected. I cannot believe I did that, so random. Just like that. I never thought I would have ever committed this sin again, yet here I was, in my weakness. I committed a grave sin & I’ve been in my room & on my prayer mat just pleading & crying so much. I ask the Lord to forgive me, even though I don’t deserve His forgiveness. I ask the Lord to have mercy on this soul that doesn’t deserve His mercy. I can’t believe I disobeyed the Lord like that. I can’t believe I did it. The result = Crying & pleading all night on my prayer mat for His forgiveness. It was an emotionally unstable kind of pleading. I can’t begin to tell you just how awful I feel & how much pleading & crying I’ve done. This experience lead me to this much emotional pain. It takes a toll on me mentally & emotionally when I commit a major sin. Moral of the story - Don’t ever think you’re will power is strong enough to stay away from sin. Stay away from settings & people that may lead to such sins. And remember, anything can happen at any moment, and it can be the most unexpected thing ever, and before you know it, you’ve put yourself into a deep hole. Don’t be that person who thinks they can stay away from any sin. We’re always vulnerable. At any place, at any time, with anyone.
  2. Does anyone else here get spiritually emotional when talking to God? Sometimes I find myself on my prayer mat just crying & crying out to God in dua. And when I say cry, I’m literally balling with tears dripping down. Sometimes I’m just feeling down & bit emotional because that’s just life. And then I find myself crying & crying out to God in sincere need. I don’t do this often, but it does happen from time to time. I’m not entirely sure what I’m trying to get at right now but I just wanted to vent a bit & the idea of coming on here & talking about it popped into my head so here I am. Who can relate. And what do you see this ‘spiritually emotional’ side of you as. What do you make of it
  3. I have fallen down a path of so much sin & neglect since the last few days of Ramadan up until now. I was sinning while fasting & I continue to do so. It's just so awful. My nasty anxiety issues have given me such brain fog that I can't think right one bit. I'm just not myself. I know God is most forgiving & merciful, but I can't stop thinking to myself that I don't deserve to be asking for anything from God because I keep disobeying Him in such awful ways. My sins are up to my neck and beyond. It's so bad. How do you guys cope with such stress, anxiety, & just blatant sinning. I've never felt so distant from God in my life. And I know it's all because of me. I have little energy to think the right thoughts. I'm stuck in a negative feedback loop about my position with God & Satan's whispers are catching up to me. All I keep thinking to myself is 'I don't deserve anything from God'. And I find that to be so true, because I don't. Especially not after the way I have been and the awful sins I keep committing. I sin because of my anxiety. I try to run away from those feelings of anxiety, & I turn to sin. It's just a destructive negative feedback loop. It feels as if my mind & body has come to accept the fact that I truly don't deserve anything from God. This is how bad my anxiety & sinning has got to me. I sit on my prayer mat & let my silence do the talking. I can't even say anything to God because I don't know where to start or what to say. I find myself thinking & believing that I don't deserve to sit there and ask anything from God. It isn't good I know. But I"m just being honest. I can't say anything to God because I've almost convinced myself that I don't deserve anything from Him because of the way I have been. I feel as if God is so angry with me & I totally understand if He is. I just need some words of encouragement because I can't think straight. The anxiety & brain fog is catching up to me. Thank you all.
  4. I have a good friend (Sunni) who doesn't pray. He's in his mid twenties. He's made 1 or 2 prayers in his entire adulthood probably. He was never religious. Over the years, he didn't know if he believed in God or not. He just never tried or put any effort into anything spiritual or religious. He's just living life & that's it. Over the years I've always talked to him about God & spirituality & all that. I never gave up on him. I knew he could believe. I always worked on him & I never gave up. I've made so much dua for his guidance as well. He needs this guidance. His father was very religious but he passed away 3 or 4 years ago. His mom is Christian & he lives with her. But she doesn't impose any of her beliefs on him at all. She just lets him be. I'm basically his only Muslim influence. He's been going through a tough time in life lately. A very horrible break up with his girlfriend, he likes to drink, & I know he clearly needs some sort of something to help him be at ease & not have to resort to all this haram. Eventually over the past 6 months or so, he finally started believing/admitting that there is a Creator. So that's definitely a step in the right direction. He's been super stressed lately & I advised him to go into sujood & say Subhana rabbi al Ala wa bi hamdeh 100 times. I got him to watch a video from a Shia scholar who advises on how to use spirituality & God to heal your stress/depression & so on. Hence why he said Subhana rabbi Al Ala wa bi hamdeh 100 times. He's also been making a lot of istighfar & so on. He's hurting inside. I know he is. He's turning to God now finally, after all these long years. But I''m just hoping it isn't a one time thing & he gives up. The reason I bring all this up is because I need advice on how to help guide him from this point on. I want for him to have the sweetness of faith that we get sometimes, & to have this God consciousness that we have. And to begin making God & Islam something that is firmly a part of his life. He texted me saying 'I made sujuud, I said subhana rubbi Al Ala wa bi hamdeh 100 times... What's next'? Help me help him. I'm not a Sheikh or nothing & I've always received a lot of my help from you guys. How do I help him? What should I advise him to do now? He used to never do anything God/Islam related. He's finally doing it now after many long years. This is the first time in his entire adulthood that he has been this close to anything God/Islam related. If someone asks him what his religion is, he always says "I grew up Muslim". You guys see what I mean here? He's finally feeling something. How can I help guide him from this point? Your answers & guidance would be very much appreciated as I've made so much dua for him, & I'm finally seeing the dua come true so far. Thank you guys.
  5. I've been so confused about this Dajjal concept lately. Because it was only recently within the past few years, that I heard Sayed Ammar Nakshawani say in a lecture that the 'Dajjal' is just a system of corruption. Meaning the corrupt system of society we live in today & so on. Which means the Dajjal is not an actual person/creature/figure. So it's like what are we supposed to believe these days. Sunnis say Dajjal is a creature/person/figure. Shias say that as well. Now our scholars are also saying the Dajjal is just the corrupt system. Too much information got me too confused.
  6. All bias aside. What do you guys think about this? How do you guys reckon Iran will deal with all this International & major economic pressure? Not going to lie, I was a bit taken back by all the people who showed up to this speech & to see the amount of passionate supporters the Supreme Leader has. Maybe because I’m from the West & don’t see the Iranian side of things or whatever. But either way, what’s next? Let’s try to be as unbiased as we can. How much longer can Iranians cope under all this economic pressure? I know that the only way there could be a regime change, is if the people inside want it. It has to be internally. External forces cannot overthrow this regime as much as they’d like to, simply because the Iranian regime is too powerful & has consolidated a lot of power. That being said, what’s next for Iran? Especially as we head into what seems to me, uncharted waters. The US & European Union is against them, it seems very difficult to picture some sort of deal of any kind in the distant future. Especially with the distrust and animosity between them. What’s next for Iran & how will the people manage this? Or am I overreacting/overthinking it all. Try to be as unbiased as you can.
  7. Go make wudhu. Perform a 2 rakkah prayer. Then have a conversation with God. Cry your heart out to Him if you have to. He knows what you're going through obviously, but He loves it when you speak to Him. Let him know all your worries, thoughts, problems, whatever is going through your head. All while asking for His help. He's always there for you. Also, watch these videos. May Allah increase your patience & help you get through these trials.
  8. Lol I hear you & agree with you. But just as there are Muslim men who act upon their desires & so on; there are also Muslim women who do the same & act on their desires as well as I'm sure you may already know. Not all of them are innocent lol. You’d be surprised. They're just more low key about it for obvious reasons. So it goes both ways
  9. Now the question arises; Why on Earth would Iran allow aircraft to be flying in and out the same night missiles were fired at US bases? The safer & more logical thing to have done would be to wait at least 24 hours & at least wait to see what the US’ response would be. This disaster could have been easily avoidable had they waited at least 24 hours as a precaution before allowing aircraft to leave or fly in. Sad sad sad.
  10. Lol & you believe what Trump says at face value? How many lies has he he told since becoming President again? There's a game being played behind the scenes with much bigger powers & guys we probably have never heard about. Trump, like the rest of the previous Presidents, is just a pawn in this whole scheme. Obviously he does what he wants, but they're all following an agenda. And in my honest opinion, Trump doesn't not want a war. It seems as though to me that he's taking his time with this whole Iran/war issue. They have to wait until all the cards are right, before they can begin another war or world war, or whatever you want to call it. I just refuse to believe that the U.S. wants out of these wars. It's all b.s. There's a much bigger game being played behind the scenes, remember that. This brings me to my previous point that I mentioned: a potential collapse of the regime in Tehran? If not a collapse, then definitely a big war with heavy losses. I believe your statement to be true, but I just don't know if I see a direct battle inside Iran or not yet. Because again, if that were to happen, then UAE & Israel & most likely Saudi Arabia will all be attacked heavily by Iran & their allied proxies. So I'd imagine a war between these major world powers would take place perhaps inside Iraq or Syria. But who knows. It's all too early to tell & very hard to say.
  11. This sentence right here has been my thoughts exactly since forever. This is the absolute truth. If they know they're going down, they'll try to take everyone down with them. Habibi, keep in mind. According to Islam, nuclear weapons are Haram. So Imam Mahdi would not do something Haram as he is infallible. Keep in mind that Imam Mahdi's knowledge is way more advanced than any human being alive today. He has Divine knowledge & remember, if all knowledge in its entirety was to be divided into 28 parts, the human civilization up until this point, has only known 2 out of 28 parts. Meaning everything we have ever achieved scientifically, technologically, & so on & so forth, is only 2 out of 28 parts of knowledge that exists. We have a ridiculously extreme amount of knowledge left that we have yet to know about. My point is this, the Imam has knowledge about technology & so on, that we could not even imagine. So I'd imagine the Imam would innovate some new things or use his Divine advantage to be able to establish himself successful militarily & so on. I just don't see the Imam using nuclear weapons. He'd probably be using things we can't even imagine due to his Divine knowledge.
  12. Listen to Hussain Faisal's latmiyat. They're amazing. This guy's voice is unreal. I've replaced my music habits with a lot of his latmiyat. Mind you, I still have a ways to go but this guy is awesome.
  13. I agree with this statement. While no doubt Iran would inflict heavy damage, it would also invite the inevitable collapse of the regime in Tehran. Now the question that always comes to my mind is, what will be Iran's status during the reappearance of the Imam? Will their government still be around? Or would they have already collapsed. It's hard to say. But then again, God promises victory to those who strive in His path, & Iran claims to be striving in God's way. Because again, the Muslims will all be tested heavily during those times. Now do those tests involve an absolute destruction of the regime in Iran to see who's the real ones left? Again, hard to say. It's all too difficult to tell & only God knows. But I always think about these things.
  14. I also happen to agree with this answer as well. To each their own. Everyone is different. But I just find that the excitement in me decreases when she's all over me so quickly & so easily. You gotta find the right balance.
  15. Salam sistaaa, Ok so I’m going to give you the straight up truth & spill out all our secrets to you. Btw I’m 24 years old & I live in the West so I can give you solid advice. Firstly, based off experience, we tend to like the girl wayyy more & want her wayyy more when she’s not all over us. So don’t show complete interest right away & don’t throw yourself at the man. Absolutely yes be mysterious, yes play the chase game, yes play a little bit hard to get. But don’t over-do it. Don’t play toooo hard to get because eventually a guy will just lose interest and it becomes a turn off & his attraction decreases. Find the right balance of playing hard to get/being mysterious, but don’t be all over him & don’t throw yourself at him. Be precious with your words. Don’t get all lovey dovey with him calling him ‘babe’ & ‘baby’ right away. Take your sweeeet time. Believe me, I’ve experienced all kinds girls who play hard to get, & those who just show all the attention right away. To me, it’s less fun when she’s into you right away. I like the mystery part of her. I like it when she makes me work for it. You gotta be like that because it allows attraction to build & build. If you know she’s into you right away, its honestly kinda boring. I’m not saying all guys are like this, but trust me, you want to take your time & play the mystery game. Throw subtle hints that you’re interested, but keep him guessing a bit & be mysterious. Don’t let your butterfly feelings take over you & start throwing yourself at him with all that attention, get him to work for it & be mysterious. It’s more precious to a guy when a girl is a bit hard to get because it shows she’s not that easy. You want the diamond that is rare & harder to get. Not the diamond that everyone else has & is easy to get. Because it just makes it all that more special I hope this helps. Salam & good luck !
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