So long that you don't give up, you stand a chance to feel His Ar-Rahim.
Right now you only have His Ar-Rahman just like the rest of us in this world.
Hang in there.
oh. communicating to Allah as in reciting duas in qunut and the sujud before the last tashahud? i can't imagine it seriously... if it doesn't cause any harm or loss by not saying it then i think im safe without it. "we hear and we obey...." 2:285
makes me wonder why it is so famous to recite ameen at the end of sura fatehah ONLY and not the other suras. very fishy. and saying ameen is just one word to talking to God. makes no sense at all. the sura fateha is as beautiful as it is, adding or 'lessing' one word ...makes it so very different.