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  1. @starlight @Quran313 Salamun Alaykum to you both. Thank you for your replies and support. I am doing better Alhamdulillah but still isn't that great. I am planning inshAllah to go on a pilgrim's journey to Mashhad or perhaps Karbala to provide me a spiritual uplifting. I have literally zero motivation to write my thesis. There is absolutely no willpower. I hope I can at least achieve the minimum required grade. Allah knows best.
  2. Thank you for your thoughts. By saying "failed miserably" I don't mean that I should be perfect. None in this world is perfect. By this I just meant that I have been sinning and these are things that I was getting control of. Alhamdullilah, I have only two months left to finish and then I'll be returning home to my family inshAllah (I live in Europe). But what I have been mostly concerned about is losing my faith. I wanted to get help from others to regain it again inshAllah.
  3. Salam, Thanks to all of you for your kind words and reassurances. Consciously I am aware that Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) has not abandoned me and nor has he forsaken me. It is indeed shaytan's (LA) whispers that creates doubts in my mind. However, I feel very relieved after breaking down in tears and asking Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) for forgiveness and guidance.
  4. Salamun Alaykum, I have been postponing posting this for a while, but I finally have urged myself write this. Basically, I have been struggling with my faith for more than two years now. To start off, I was born in a Shia family Alhamdulillah but I never showed interest in religion up till 2014. This was the same year I started my Bachelor's degree where I faced loneliness and difficulties. I slowly started practicing my faith by offering my prayers as I my father had taught me and I still remembered most if it (I did miss Fajr all the time). During the Muharram of 2015 I suddenly decided to change and commit myself more to my religion. Alhamdulillah, this was also the first time I cried and mourned for Imam Hussain (عليه السلام). It felt very good and I started to read about Shiaism and I was getting more and more into it. I started learning to recite some duas and ziyarats and SubhanAllah even learned some of them by heart. Even though I did not know what I was reciting during Salah, reciting some ziyarahs and this felt very satisfying. My relationship with Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) was developing. At that time I was in my second year of degree and my results were far superior compared to first year. However, all things began falling apart in my final year. I was struggling with my thesis and ended up doing quite bad. From here onwards, my faith starting spiraling and the distance between me and Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) grew larger. Surely all of these were trials from God, but I failed miserably. It didn't also help for the fact that I have only read very small parts of the Holy Qur'an. All of this happened more than two years ago. I don't know where I went wrong. Fast forward two years and I am at the end of my MSc inshAllah and It seems like I have lost it all. I just read my Salah only because it has become a chore for me. My attention is anywhere but with Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) during Salah. I am now almost exactly in the same situation as two years ago when I was working on my thesis. On top of all of this, I have been suffering from social anxiety to make mattes worse. I am visiting a counselor here at my University but it doesn't seem to help much at the moment. There have been moments where I have felt useless and came home from Uni breaking down in tears after Salah. I begged Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) for forgiveness whilst I was in full tears. Today was the most recent time this happened again. I feel lost. I literally cried for 20 minutes and begged Ahlul Bayt (عليه السلام) for their intercession. Asked our Imam of our time for his intercession, but it seems like it is worthless. I am now struggling with this test occurring at exactly the same period as during my Bachelor's (Thesis period). Deep inside I know that Allah (سُبْحَانَهُ وَ تَعَالَى) is with me and that He is not unjust. But it feels like all of it is worthless. I testify to Him that there is no God except Him. How could He not forgive me and guide me when I fully believe in his Oneness? How is it that He doesn't help me in such a difficult period. Surely, He does not burden a soul beyond what it can bare. I have about two months left to submit my thesis but it is not going good at all. I find it difficult to grasp some aspects of it. I will surely fail if I keep on going like this. I mostly have very low self esteem and fear asking others due to my social anxiety. I don't post here very often, but I visit here regularly. I for sure know that there are many knowledgeable brothers and sisters on this forum that can provide a valuable insight as well as advice to me. And lastly, I almost live in the middle of nowhere and there just a few Shias here all of them being families. I apologize for this long post. I might have forgotten to mention a few things but I think that the above should help provide an insight into my situation. I will look forward to your replies.
  5. In Surah Luqman verse 19 it is mentioned: And be moderate in your pace and lower your voice; indeed, the most disagreeable of sounds is the voice of donkeys." In terms of hadith I am not that knowledgeable.
  6. W. Salam brother, I have made a screenshot of the available calculation method you could choose from. I've got the older version of the app which is also in English apart from Farsi. Do you want me to link you to the apk file?
  7. Iran haven't even scored a goal themselves. I don't know how you conclude that Iran has a better squad. Portugal has an old central defence but they have alot of experience. I predict a win for Portugal. And I'm not saying that Iranian players should play in Europe. I am merely just stating how Portugal has a better squad in terms of quality.
  8. @Murtaza1 Salam Alaykum brother, If you happen to have an android phone, give Baad Saba app a go. It's an Iranian calendar app which has a massive database of many cities in the world. It also shows separate prayer times too. You cannot find it on the Play Store, but here is the link to the official website: http://www.badesaba.ir/. I hope this helps!
  9. Iran better than Portugal? Don't let me laugh. They are the better side by far, be it with or without Ronaldo. Most Iranian players play in Iran compared the Portugal squad mostly playing in Europe. Spain played poorly, otherwise they would have demolished Iran.
  10. But how do you know that these so called 'halal meat shops' don't get their chicken from these same factories? Brother, do you really think animals for halal slaughtering is grown by Muslims. I live in Europe and I've heard these halal butchers say that halal and non halal meat is distributed from the same place.
  11. We have survived war in the last four decades but who caused it? Shouldn't we mostly blame ourselves for this? Especially the Mujahideen?
  12. Sorry that I'm saying this sister, but what pride? What could we possibly be proud of? The mujahideen who destroyed our country after licking out the Soviets? They killed thousands upon thousands of innocent civilians because one didn't get the position he wanted in government? Or should we proud of the corrupt after corrupt government that is elected? I don't have much pride of Afghanistan because it hasn't given me anything (mainly because I am hazara). The reason I sad the we would have been better off with the Soviets is because once in the history of Afghanistan, we had a true president in Dr. Najibullah. There was plenty of food back then with education for everyone. And look now at the state of our country were many are still illiterate.
  13. If I'm honest Afghanistan will never be strong again. The presence of almost 40 years of war and western occupation has destroyed Afghanistan. Hatred is developed during the civil war. USA just destroyed once a beautiful and developing country. I'm saying this based from experience because my father lived in Afghanistan during the 70s (I am afghan myself). Me and my family are always of the opinion to have let the Soviet Union conquer Afghanistan, because after all, it wouldn't have been in this situation currently going on. Of all the people of Afghanistan, the Hazaras have been killed and oppressed more than any other.
  14. I don't think the Taliban are getting better with the Hazaras. Proof is the recent joint attack with ISIS on the village of Mirza Olang in the province of Mazar Sharif. Besides, when they only want Pashtuns in Afghanistan, why would they reconcile with the Hazaras? In my opinion the hatred of the Taliban towards Hazaras is mostly because of race and politics. I don't think religion plays a huge role in this.
  15. The problem here is that I cannot decide what since both of the istikhara's are good. I didn't do istikhara twice for the same issue. They're two different issue and the second istikhara came out 'very' good compared to 'good' in the first instance. I don't know what decision to make; whether or not go for the masters based on the istikhara's. I'm thinking of following the 2nd one since it's more in my favour.
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