Thank you very much for long sharing long brief with me... I will keep hiding practicing my faith. I heard about Taqqiya, but again, I should keep learn the laws of practicing Taqqiya in the daily life. But when I practice Salah my self, I guess, this is not a problem. If you live in my country, if you say you are muslim, that means you are following what the common muslims do (which mean Mazhab Syafi'i). Alhamdulillah, Wudu and Salah was not difficult for me to perform in few weeks. I could memorize 3 Surahs (Surah Al-Fateeha, Surah Tawheed, and Surah Al-Falaq) although I should learn from