Ive reached a stage in life where ive gotten my own property, car, marriage, ive traveled a lot, been to ziyarah many times and I contemplated going to umrah. Im just sure that going will do nothing for me and ill see it as a waste.
Salah, ramadan, eid, muharram, family, work and everything else. I feel nothing, just cold and empty
Ive come to realize it all doesn't matter, the joy i got out of it all was short lived, i dont feel happy, fulfilled nor accomplished.
it was all a means to an end
maybe i got issues, i dont really care.
at the end of the day, im grateful and other people are having it much worse.