baqar

You asked this question in 2017 and someone has just plucked this thread out from the dead.
I am sure you already have your answer.
But if you are still interested, New Jersey, New York, Chicago, Los Angeles would probably be the best.
If you speak Arabic, add Dearborn, Mich. to the list.

Hook, line and sinker

Emoji assisted correction.

Lock, stock and barrel

What makes you feel that way? 

The hadiths you have quoted have nothing to do with what I was talking about.
I was referring to the continued derivation of pleasure from sensual thought.
The hadiths are talking about an intention to do something that would be a sin if carried out.
For example, if I have been hurt by someone and I wish to kill him, that is an intention that I could carry out.
What I have described above is totally different.  

It is not my opinion, brother.
It has been the opinion of Islamic scholarship for ever and for ever and for ever.
If you wish to interpret those hadiths the way you have done, you are welcome to do so.
I have no objections.

As he said, If someone INDULGES in those thoughts, I.e. spends some time enjoying those thoughts, it is a sin.
 
I.e., no fantasizing
 
Also, consider how it leads to other sins and issues.

Masha Allah
That is the spirit, brother.
Confidence and determination!
With God's mercy, you will be successful, insha Allah.

Sister, as far as I know, that is not quite true.
If someone INDULGES in those thoughts, in other words spend some tome enjoying those thoughts, it is also a sin.
And that goes also for heterosexuality.
For example, if a man thinks of a woman in a sexual manner and allows himself the continued pleasure of that thought, he is committing a sin. 
It is the same for both homosexuality and heterosexuality.
Of course, the sin of action may be bigger.
But the sin of thought is also a sin. 
Brother, please don't call yourself a sinner but just try to address the problem you are facing.
All human beings are sinners in some  respect.
And we must all try to improve.
As I have said above, the sin of action may be bigger than the sin of thought, but they are both sins.
And as I have also pointed out above, there is no difference between same sex and opposite sex as far as the sin of thought is concerned.

Masha Allah
That is the spirit, brother.
Confidence and determination!
With God's mercy, you will be successful, insha Allah.

There are many things you can do to bring about a change in your life.
The first thing is that you MUST be determined.
If you are determined, God will show you the way.
 I would also like to suggest two things -
read a little of the Qur'an every day and spend a few minutes turning to God in your mind and expressing your remorse. These might help. 
Best Wishes

Actions speak louder than words

Slow and steady wins the race.

Lock, stock and barrel

Lock, stock and barrel

When someone is sick and you are trying to feed them something that helps.
A few years ago l came across an article that said this is derived from a Jewish tradition, but said widely in the US.
 

l can read better than speak or hear.
That is the machine translation l found when looking to check my spelling.
When l learned it 50 years ago it was "fucbar"(terrible), but is when there was still High and Low German.
Now, l don't want to start any klaggenfurt.
Which reminds me:
l used to sing "Ach du Lieber . . ." to my nephew. One line went, "Ihre Mutter ist misgerbert, horen Sie Klaggenfurt . . ."

And this is the longest word in the English language: 
pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis
It is a lung disease contracted from the inhalation of very fine silica particles, especially from a volcano.
Medically, it is the same as silicosis.  

That's been more than an idiom in my family. 
It's kept us  Alive and kicking.

Feed a cold, starve a fever

It is the fault of the Church.
Everything that has happened in this direction in the last 2,000 years is because a very weak Church has never shown any real strength to promote morals.
And this applies to ALL Christian denominations.

Feed a cold, starve a fever

Slow and steady wins the race.

Actions speak louder than words