Don't worry.I am guy I went through this phase as well.I can tell you what helped
2.Do not stop looking
3.May be if you could consider expanding the applicant pool people whom you have not included
4.Do not think Allah mercy does not encompass you
5.Ziarat Ashura for 40 days
Allahumma salli ala muhammadiw wa ali muhammadin wa ajjil faraja hum
Rabbinee lima anzalta ilayya min khayrin faqir
Audhu billahi minash shaytanir rajeem
دع كل الشتائم ضدي تُعاد سبعة أضعاف.
Ya Allah, protect my sister from further harm and abuse
Ya as-Sadiq, pray on my behalf, to Al-Haqq that my friend is guided to Islam and healed of her headaches. Verily with hardship comes ease. (إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا - 94:6)
Ya Kadhim, pray to As-Sabur on my behalf that me and my brother in Islam are rewarded with a wife each and also that he can find the strength and to overcome his sadness. Verily with hardship comes ease. (إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا - 94:6)
Ya Ridha, pray to Al-Wadud on my behalf that she gets peace of mind, verily with hardship comes ease. (إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا - 94:6)
Ya Taqi, pray to Al Hakim on my behalf that my burden is lessened and I get the strength to take this deen and the sanctity of my life seriously. Verily with hardship comes ease. (إِنَّ مَعَ الْعُسْرِ يُسْرًا - 94:6)
I ask nothing more than for our happiness and well-being.
May we all be protected from the plague by Your permission
Both are harming me for different reasons. In the first instance I am being forced to accept something I do not agree with. The influence of this agenda is permeating through social institutions and structures in areas like education and politics and I fear for the future of the next generation(s).
In the second instance I am being harmed by, as you mentioned, the hypocrisy of those who operate under the guise of religiosity. They have tried to defame and ridicule me and I am sure many others can relate.
Point is, these aren’t mutually exclusive phenomena. You can be harmed by both, simultaneously. The existence of one of these instances does not negate or reduce the influence of another.