Salam. Since she is older than you and she messaged you first, she was in control of the situation and wanted your attention. Once you told her that you are in love with her, she was not interested. You could think that you will wait for her to finish her education and 5 years from now you can marry but I would question why you would want to do that? If she cared about you, then she would not have hurt you so much by playing with your emotions and then rejecting you. Love has to be mutual. You have a lot of growing up to do. Take this as your first love, as only an infatuation, that you will learn from.  

I said "that's not ideal" about the OP being unable to go to a doctor and how his family doesnt think he is mentally I'll.

It’s not a mystery book but takes many years of study & need huge amount of money to be translated & published but it’s not mysterious & forbidden also even it publishes you must spend your lifetime like a marjato understand it but you befit it from its results on internet & think that you know everything better than a Marja.

@AbdulKarim313_Austin/Nola Similar lines of thought. Ahsant... [Mission: the Delivery and the Execution Unlike his Message, the Mission of Muhammad was not simple at all; it was one part delivery and one part execution. Delivery of the Prophet’s Mission Delivery part of his Mission was to teach absolute justice on Earth. Absolute justice meant the consistent and complete synchronization of all ‘creatures of free will’ with the ‘Will of God’. Muhammad as the Messenger was to teach how to perfect this absolute synchronization between God and his creatures, at all levels of human experience. Everything else that God had created on this Earth was already in complete synchronization with the God’s will; it was only the creatures of free will, that would time to time, go out of sync with the will of God. Muhammad had to teach them consistency in this synchronization. Execution of the Prophet’s Mission Execution part of Muhammad’s Mission rested on the delegation of God’s authority on Earth. God’s authority could only be delegated to a leader who was perfectly synchronized with the Will of God. This perfect human was to be called the vicegerent of God on Earth. Muhammad, in his lifetime, was the vicegerent or the ‘Khalifa’ of God on Earth. Before him, other Prophets were God’s vicegerents on Earth. After Muhammad, there had to be vicegerents of God too. The dispute about their leadership or the ‘Wilaya’ became the cause of the first and the only ideological division in Muhammad’s community. Every other difference stemmed from this.] Excerpt from the book: Prophet Muhammad (A Young Adult's Guide to the Early History of Islam) https://www.amazon.com/dp/1790469651