That doesn't quite make sense to me if I were to be honest with you. I'm being forced to live, I'm suppose to just randomly cope with life and deal with everything pretending like it's ok. And when it becomes to much to handle and I give up there's a bigger punishment waiting. Ppl say pray make dua do good deeds.......I've been doing nothing but that. I'm begining to feel like islam is fake. Partly why I'm willing to take this risk.
Imam Jafar al Sadiq a.s replied in context to infatuation. What do you think about what was the condition of your attraction towards that guy ? Were you infatuated by his personality or attracted by morals and behavior. Have you loved him due to being of good faith or good personality. If you loved him due to good faith, then you loved him due to Allah and if you loved him due to his personality, then you loved him due to materialistic aims and one who has materialism in his spirit, will learn one day that materials do not live by his side always. And if one learns such lesson with the departure of materialistic sooner, it would be much better.