In the court, I had no lawyer nor was there any witness who would testify to my innocence for angels never give any false testimony.
I said: "O God I will pay ransom, just forgive me!"
You agreed but the ransom was nothing other than proving my love and loyalty to you.
I had to remain loyal to you even in the most difficult situations. I had to love you not only in the moments of happiness and comfort but also when I was in trouble and when I was desperately upset. And this couldn't be realized in paradise.
You told me that for achieving something precious, I had to strive for it and try my best. For only in this way, would I know its real worth and try not to lose it.
You told me that if you had not accommodated me in paradise, I would have given some excuse for my disobedience and would have told that I would not commit sin if I were not in difficult conditions.
But now I didn't have any excuse.
The final decision of the court was this:
I had to be banished to a very distant place called "the earth".
I wept and begged forgiveness but you rejected me and cast me out of your heaven.
My wings were broken; one wing was broken by greed and the other by arrogance. You left me alone and terrified on the earth. Did you ask yourself how I could survive?! I was your favourite! How could you treat me like that?!
Everywhere I went, there was nothing but deep darkness. I was wandering around aimlessly and crazily until I saw the mirror of truth.
I loved mirrors! I supposed I would see an angel in it! But when I looked into the mirror, I saw Satan!
"No! No! I don't want to be Satan!" I broke the mirror and it smashed to one thousand pieces and then I saw one thousand Satans.
Oh, God! What did I do?! I broke the mirror of truth! I was guilty, certainly guilty, and had to be punished.
I put my head on the altar and waited for you; waited to feel the sharp blade of your knife on the back of my neck. But this was not the great sacrifice you wanted from me.
For many years, I wept and implored you to forgive me. Finally, I took a big decision:
I had to wake up from my slumber of egoism. I had to kill the devil within myself. That day was the Day of Stonning Satan. Death be upon Satan!
What a hard fight the battle against own's ownself was! In this fight, the winner was me; the loser was also me.
I killed myself and returned to you, exhausted from a hard battle, unable to say anything, even unable to cry. My wounds, themselves, were the sign of my loyalty to you.
O Lord! Will you accept this great sacrifice?!
It has been thousands of years that I have been away from you and my wounds will not heal until the day when I can meet you
And now, I see a light on the horizon, in the distance.
I am going there, towards the sun, towards the truth, where the Sacred Land is. I am going there barefoot*.
O Lord! Help me, lest I should deviate, lest I should go astray.
From the earth to the heavens, I proceed; I will start my journey towards infinity.
* Indeed, I am your Lord, so remove your sandals. Indeed, you are in the sacred valley of Tuwa (surah Taha/ v. 12)